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Post by jalapeno on Apr 11, 2018 13:11:04 GMT -5
Post what your day/week/month is like -----
> by writing something (a rant, a poem, a single word) > by uploading a picture that best describes it, or > by uploading a video, or song, or whatever. I'll start. This is the kind of WEEK I am having: **DISCLAIMER**THIS IS A JUDGEMENT FREE THREAD. YES, THAT IS ICECREAM AND YES IT IS IN A BOX AND YES I AM EATING IT RIGHT OUT OF THE BOX.
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Post by James on Apr 11, 2018 14:39:54 GMT -5
To be honest I'm having a terrible month.
I been with this girl for going on 7 months now, I love her, I mean really fucking love her but she's got issues. She refuses to deal with these issues and it makes this whole relationship kind of fucking miserable. I've been trying really hard, I didn't put up walls and shut her out, I've allowed myself to be vulnerable with her (that's a very big deal for me). I know I have to end it, but I'm terrified for the first time in a very long time of being alone. For the first time in a very long time I have this fear that it's going to be really hard (or impossible) to find someone who accapts and loves my dis. I know it's false and irrational, but I can't seem to shake it. It's like all my confidence has vanished. I dunno man, this is not the James I know and love.
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Post by mona on Apr 11, 2018 14:53:31 GMT -5
He took it away after so many years he just tore it out and I was in tears.
My ache was not small but I know after all life isn't always smooth.
And I open my fist to look at what's inside. I see his last gift: my wisdom tooth.
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Post by mona on Apr 11, 2018 14:58:19 GMT -5
To be honest I'm having a terrible month. I been with this girl for going on 7 months now, I love her, I mean really fucking love her but she's got issues. She refuses to deal with these issues and it makes this whole relationship kind of fucking miserable. I've been trying really hard, I didn't put up walls and shut her out, I've allowed myself to be vulnerable with her (that's a very big deal for me). I know I have to end it, but I'm terrified for the first time in a very long time of being alone. For the first time in a very long time I have this fear that it's going to be really hard (or impossible) to find someone who accapts and loves my dis. I know it's false and irrational, but I can't seem to shake it. It's like all my confidence has vanished. I dunno man, this is not the James I know and love. I'm very sorry to read this. Is there anything we can do to help? Would you like to tell us more about her issues so that we can maybe give some advice?
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2018 15:10:33 GMT -5
To be honest I'm having a terrible month. I been with this girl for going on 7 months now, I love her, I mean really fucking love her but she's got issues. She refuses to deal with these issues and it makes this whole relationship kind of fucking miserable. I've been trying really hard, I didn't put up walls and shut her out, I've allowed myself to be vulnerable with her (that's a very big deal for me). I know I have to end it, but I'm terrified for the first time in a very long time of being alone. For the first time in a very long time I have this fear that it's going to be really hard (or impossible) to find someone who accapts and loves my dis. I know it's false and irrational, but I can't seem to shake it. It's like all my confidence has vanished. I dunno man, this is not the James I know and love. Dude, that sucks. I stuck around in a really shitty relationship for the same reason. It’s scary. And you’re going to hurt. But you know what you have to do. Is being in a miserable relationship really any better than being on your own? All that being said, I have to admit that I’m not so sure that I would do the right thing if I was in your situation. I’ve been having an amazing past few months as far as being happy with myself and my life has been on a constant upswing. But I’m lonely. And horny. Despite being a “good catch” on paper, it’s ridiculously fucking hard to find someone when you have a pretty major disability. You didn’t ask for advice and I’m not going to give you any. Just know that I feel your pain, bro.
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Post by James on Apr 11, 2018 17:25:52 GMT -5
To be honest I'm having a terrible month. I been with this girl for going on 7 months now, I love her, I mean really fucking love her but she's got issues. She refuses to deal with these issues and it makes this whole relationship kind of fucking miserable. I've been trying really hard, I didn't put up walls and shut her out, I've allowed myself to be vulnerable with her (that's a very big deal for me). I know I have to end it, but I'm terrified for the first time in a very long time of being alone. For the first time in a very long time I have this fear that it's going to be really hard (or impossible) to find someone who accapts and loves my dis. I know it's false and irrational, but I can't seem to shake it. It's like all my confidence has vanished. I dunno man, this is not the James I know and love. I'm very sorry to read this. Is there anything we can do to help? Would you like to tell us more about her issues so that we can maybe give some advice? I appreciate it but I don't want to go into her personal life online. I know what needs to be done, I've just gotta do it. To be honest I'm having a terrible month. I been with this girl for going on 7 months now, I love her, I mean really fucking love her but she's got issues. She refuses to deal with these issues and it makes this whole relationship kind of fucking miserable. I've been trying really hard, I didn't put up walls and shut her out, I've allowed myself to be vulnerable with her (that's a very big deal for me). I know I have to end it, but I'm terrified for the first time in a very long time of being alone. For the first time in a very long time I have this fear that it's going to be really hard (or impossible) to find someone who accapts and loves my dis. I know it's false and irrational, but I can't seem to shake it. It's like all my confidence has vanished. I dunno man, this is not the James I know and love. Dude, that sucks. I stuck around in a really shitty relationship for the same reason. It’s scary. And you’re going to hurt. But you know what you have to do. Is being in a miserable relationship really any better than being on your own? All that being said, I have to admit that I’m not so sure that I would do the right thing if I was in your situation. I’ve been having an amazing past few months as far as being happy with myself and my life has been on a constant upswing. But I’m lonely. And horny. Despite being a “good catch” on paper, it’s ridiculously fucking hard to find someone when you have a pretty major disability. You didn’t ask for advice and I’m not going to give you any. Just know that I feel your pain, bro. Yeah so you know how it goes. I'm just reaching a point where I'm gonna have to do the right thing. Sucks but that's life
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Post by lizzy on Apr 11, 2018 18:34:44 GMT -5
Nice topic jalapeno and one that will pop up often I'm sure. Ice-cream is a great comforter but I don't eat it. Boys!! I get you so much, and I am chatting to someone who is in the same place. I have no advice either, but I know you will do the right thing x
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2018 19:41:48 GMT -5
To be honest I'm having a terrible month. I been with this girl for going on 7 months now, I love her, I mean really fucking love her but she's got issues. She refuses to deal with these issues and it makes this whole relationship kind of fucking miserable. I've been trying really hard, I didn't put up walls and shut her out, I've allowed myself to be vulnerable with her (that's a very big deal for me). I know I have to end it, but I'm terrified for the first time in a very long time of being alone. For the first time in a very long time I have this fear that it's going to be really hard (or impossible) to find someone who accapts and loves my dis. I know it's false and irrational, but I can't seem to shake it. It's like all my confidence has vanished. I dunno man, this is not the James I know and love. It took me two years of being in limbo to get to that point. Knowing where I was and who I was becoming because of it was unhealthy, yet I had to keep holding on. I held on for too long and I’m feeling the affects of learning to live again because of it. I can tell you that I have no answer about how to overcome that fear of feeling hopeless as I put it. That you won’t be accepted. Not only have those demons entered my mind, they’ve taken over my soul. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve looked at the mirror these last few months and knew the reflection looking back at me was just a vessel with a broken soul trapped inside of it, and that’s not who am I or how I made it this far or this long. I really hope the best for you in this situation. You being the keyword. You can’t sacrifice your own well being
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2018 23:02:58 GMT -5
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Post by shape on Apr 12, 2018 3:29:45 GMT -5
This could apply for a month, but this week is insane!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 12, 2018 5:27:34 GMT -5
I’ll take a year or two 😛
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Post by wonk on Apr 12, 2018 6:45:53 GMT -5
Best month ever!
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Post by Hopper on Apr 12, 2018 9:45:12 GMT -5
All three are not great at the moment, hence the lack of posts and replies to PMs.
Here's a song to fit m'mood. Just don't read too much into the 'pretender' part.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 12, 2018 13:59:03 GMT -5
@wonk looks like your race team won big
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Post by Sova on Apr 12, 2018 18:32:52 GMT -5
To be honest I'm having a terrible month. I been with this girl for going on 7 months now, I love her, I mean really fucking love her but she's got issues. She refuses to deal with these issues and it makes this whole relationship kind of fucking miserable. I've been trying really hard, I didn't put up walls and shut her out, I've allowed myself to be vulnerable with her (that's a very big deal for me). I know I have to end it, but I'm terrified for the first time in a very long time of being alone. For the first time in a very long time I have this fear that it's going to be really hard (or impossible) to find someone who accapts and loves my dis. I know it's false and irrational, but I can't seem to shake it. It's like all my confidence has vanished. I dunno man, this is not the James I know and love. Sometimes you'll come across that someone who gets under your skin and doesn't go away. This girl might have that particular fungal property for you. Take some time off and I guarantee the confidence will come faster than a premature ejaculator. Then you can better assess how to deal with the situation.
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