Post by loveparas on Aug 18, 2019 1:16:05 GMT -5
At the begining I was thinking of posting this on the Devs only part, but I also thought "wtf PWD also have crushes so why not include theirs too?"
As you can remember I am one of the youngest in this forum over all so I know I have a long time to experiment ahead. Still I thought it would be cool to share one of my experiences and see if I can learn from yours.
I have know about my devness for a while now, but I've started to put real interest in it lately (I mean like actively talking about it). Going back to when I started to realize I was a dev, I was also fighting with my sexuality as a whole and that's when I found this person. Let's call him Jeff just for fun (his real name and identity will not be revealed since I don't have his consent neither have I ever talked to him). Jeff was one of the first PWD I've ever seen. I met his story on YouTube as those like documentary style videos and everything changed since then. He was barely my age and was being documented as a role model for someone being recently injured and still doing sports and living life as he liked (yeah like any other basic TV documentary). I was hooked since the first moment. I had just started to realize I liked guys and he was everything I thought imposible. He was super pretty in the video but what killed me was his smile. Even now I sometimes bump into one of his Instagram posts and that smile melts me. I still haven't met any guy that is as happy and cheerful as him. He is funny af and super nice. Like that type of kid you want as a friend at school, and at that time I had none lol (sad but true). It could be a topic for another post but yeah I was pretty lonely at the time. But what struck me most about Jeff was that even tho he was a wheelchair user, he was beautiful for me, as a whole. I liked everything from him head to toes. That was a eye opener for me, I was like "is it OK for me to also like his legs?" at the time it wasn't in my mind and in the mind of most of the people surrounding me. This triggered me to investigate more and to achieve getting the place I am right now. Now when I see Jeff, I na picture or story, I still feel those butterflies inside, even though he doesn't know me. He plays sports representing his country, I hated sports but he made me realized I could watch some a few times. He made me realized I had to take care of myself if I wanted to be happy and like who I saw in the mirror. I started gym, ate better. He changed me, at least a little. Maybe it was all indirect help, but he still did. I still feel like he my biggest crush, even tho I forget about him and move on, I see one picture of him and I remember all, what happened more than 3 years ago and what happens now.
So now, what about you? Have you felt this with someone? Not only devs but PWD too! Did someone affect you like this? Do you have crushes? Should I take something into consideration?
Also thank you to everyone who read this! I am still kinda new to this idea of posting myself and it can be somewhat scary but I try my best. So thank you for the opportunity of giving me a space to be free and spress myself.
As you can remember I am one of the youngest in this forum over all so I know I have a long time to experiment ahead. Still I thought it would be cool to share one of my experiences and see if I can learn from yours.
I have know about my devness for a while now, but I've started to put real interest in it lately (I mean like actively talking about it). Going back to when I started to realize I was a dev, I was also fighting with my sexuality as a whole and that's when I found this person. Let's call him Jeff just for fun (his real name and identity will not be revealed since I don't have his consent neither have I ever talked to him). Jeff was one of the first PWD I've ever seen. I met his story on YouTube as those like documentary style videos and everything changed since then. He was barely my age and was being documented as a role model for someone being recently injured and still doing sports and living life as he liked (yeah like any other basic TV documentary). I was hooked since the first moment. I had just started to realize I liked guys and he was everything I thought imposible. He was super pretty in the video but what killed me was his smile. Even now I sometimes bump into one of his Instagram posts and that smile melts me. I still haven't met any guy that is as happy and cheerful as him. He is funny af and super nice. Like that type of kid you want as a friend at school, and at that time I had none lol (sad but true). It could be a topic for another post but yeah I was pretty lonely at the time. But what struck me most about Jeff was that even tho he was a wheelchair user, he was beautiful for me, as a whole. I liked everything from him head to toes. That was a eye opener for me, I was like "is it OK for me to also like his legs?" at the time it wasn't in my mind and in the mind of most of the people surrounding me. This triggered me to investigate more and to achieve getting the place I am right now. Now when I see Jeff, I na picture or story, I still feel those butterflies inside, even though he doesn't know me. He plays sports representing his country, I hated sports but he made me realized I could watch some a few times. He made me realized I had to take care of myself if I wanted to be happy and like who I saw in the mirror. I started gym, ate better. He changed me, at least a little. Maybe it was all indirect help, but he still did. I still feel like he my biggest crush, even tho I forget about him and move on, I see one picture of him and I remember all, what happened more than 3 years ago and what happens now.
So now, what about you? Have you felt this with someone? Not only devs but PWD too! Did someone affect you like this? Do you have crushes? Should I take something into consideration?
Also thank you to everyone who read this! I am still kinda new to this idea of posting myself and it can be somewhat scary but I try my best. So thank you for the opportunity of giving me a space to be free and spress myself.
