The first time

[amy]

Here's a question, sorry if someone has already asked it:

How did you first realize you were a dev?

My story: As a teenager, I never derived much enjoyment out of masturbation. Meanwhile, I was ALWAYS writing "innocent" little stories about guys in wheelchairs, totally oblivious to why this subject fascinated me so much. I was in my own little universe, la la la. One night I was thinking about a story I was writing and all of a sudden, I realized I was very turned on and BAM... well, you get the idea.

[annie]

As far back as I can remember I was fascinated by people in wheelchairs. When i was as young as six or seven I would write and draw little stories and books and they would most often have characters in w/c s. The funny thing is, even when I was so young and my intrest was by no means sexual yet I still felt odd about it. I never showed anyone the stories I made that involved w/c s. I used to sit in my bed and pretend my legs didn't work. The older I got the more I became aware, and thus ashamed of my quirk. I used to seek out movies with para characters. I found the word devotee when I went away for my freshman year of undergrad. With my very own computer and no parents around I researched and found that despite what I had believed up until that point that I was not the only one!

[dolly]

i've been interested in and 'drawn to' people with various disabilities since childhood. it was often a factor in my play or creative endeavours. even though it didn't feel 'bad', i always knew it was something i should keep to myself. it wasn't until puberty that my interest became geared towards men specifically and then took on a more mature form of attraction.

[irishclaire]

I realised during my childhood too. I remember going with my mum to meet a male friend of hers who was in a wc. I was totally fascinated by him, and that kinda 'triggered off' my thoughts about people with disabilities. I was only about 6 at the time so there was no sexual desire yet. That came later. But I wasn't sure if I was right to feel this way. I actually felt incredibly guilty. I've been with one para, and to be honest since we split up I've wanted to avoid all wheelers. The desire is definitely still there, possibly stronger than it ever has been before. I just need to find the right one next time haha
Funny, I was thinking of starting a thread like this the other day. Good work amy!!

[BA]

Apr 17, 2009 3:14:40 GMT -5 @irishclaire said:

I've been with one para, and to be honest since we split up I've wanted to avoid all wheelers. The desire is definitely still there, possibly stronger than it ever has been before. I just need to find the right one next time haha
Funny, I was thinking of starting a thread like this the other day. Good work amy!!

Indeed Twi! Do not give up. You just haven't met the right guy.

As for the first time, I was also about 6 or 7. We were at the beach on vacation, on the boardwalk and we met friends who had a son (probably in his late teens/early 20's) in a chair from what I heard (whispered) was "an accident". It was all very hush, hush (in later years I found out that it had to do with drug use on his part, but at that time I didn't know why). Maybe because it was so clandestine and forbidden to discuss, it held an even more incredible fascination for me. He was a morose young man/kid and couldn't have been bothered to even glance at me, no less utter a word, but I found myself thinking about him all the time.

[Valkyrja]

Since my first memories. I was 5 years old, more or less, and I remember slightly to play to "the doctor" and I made my friends to be still sat down in a chair.
As I was growing, my fascination also grew. I remember that every time that I saw a man on a wheelchair, I could not stop looking at him and I felt some tickle in the stomach.
With the years everything was growing. The first time I masturbated was after watching the movie "leave yesterday behind" (or something like that) with John Ritter. Now, almost in my 40, when I execute my "Solos" I only achieve it fantasizing with a wheeler.
So... , all my life I have been a devotee... just that I recently know what is.

[irishclaire]

My 'devness' is extra strong at the minute. Oh dear....

[dolly]

Apr 22, 2009 8:32:15 GMT -5 @irishclaire said:

My 'devness' is extra strong at the minute. Oh dear....

i hear ya, sista...

[amy]

That John Ritter movie sounds really good. Too bad it's not available anywhere. I always thought Jack Tripper was really hot.

[Valkyrja]

Amy, when If I watch it now... it`s not accurate. But I was 11 or 12 years old and... WOW!... it blew my head off!!. After that movie, I loved John Ritter because, every time I saw him, I remember Paul Stalling (his character).
I can´t find it anywhere, same as you

[me]

I've always been fascinated by disability, I've fantasised about it since a child and I've always had people with disabilities in my life so it all seemed pretty normal to me. It has only been over the last 5 or 6 years that I've realised my fascination/attraction wasn't 'normal' and that I might be a dev.

[lookingfor]

i have always been surrounded by people with disabilities. both of my uncles were dwarves..i only knew one though but i probably spent more time with him than my mom when he was alive. i loved lurlene mcdaniels books. i read all of them that i could find. i would write stories about kids with disabilities and i would act like my barbies and dolls were in wheelchairs. i told my best friend when we were in middle school that i was going to adopt a kid with a disability. i was just always fascinated by disabilities. when i was really little i would act like my stick horses were crutches. the first para that i dated was actually by complete accident. we started talking on line and talked on the phone for a while and one day he asked if i had ever been into his work and seen the guy in the wheelchair... he ended up being crazy but at least it was fun for a bit haha