anais
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Post by anais on Nov 30, 2010 11:36:01 GMT -5
Cake, where is the chat you were talking about??? Please inform me  And I am with you and Devogirl about "yuckness". After over-obsessing I feel self-hatred and whole-world-hatred and nausea and "take it away". And there is another thing: a sense of "deconstrustion". It's like I suddenly loose it, like the whole experience breaks apart in bits and pieces and I can't figure, what was there, that turned me on. I mean WTF? Wheels? Legs? Transfers? What are those words and what do they mean? The meaning is lost. Oh, and Devogirl, do you mind sharing the books that you buy in tons? |
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Post by Cake on Nov 30, 2010 13:20:33 GMT -5
Cake, where is the chat you were talking about??? Please inform me Sent you a PM! |
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Post by Devoblue on Nov 30, 2010 14:30:25 GMT -5
I actually have been in a pleasant in-between stage lately, not feeling totally turned off (I know what you mean Anais, it can feel like all the pleasure in life is gone) but not obsessing. I think I'm getting to the obsessive stage though, spending more time on the internet, buying a ton more books that it will probably take me months to read. This is pretty much exactly where I'm at too at the moment - the in-between stage and definitely feeling it ramping up. I never can gauge when its going to happen. Sometimes it seems sparked by a conversation with someone or just a sudden urge to seek out more devo material online etc. When I've got thru a highly active phase it seems to just naturally taper off...I almost don't realise its calming down till I realise i've not been on here as much in a while. During those times I tend to come by and read the posts but post less myself as well. I miss that excitement of a high phase when it's not here and when i'm in the middle of it I sometimes wish it would ease off to let me just focus on other things. Maybe it's a classic grass is always greener on the other side kind of thing.  |
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Post by devogirl on Nov 30, 2010 15:19:57 GMT -5
Sorry, almost the books I've been buying lately are about blind guys. I know most of you aren't that interested, but I can post the titles if you want. I write a lot of reviews and have some running lists on Amazon under the name Devo Girl, so you can look them up there too.
I still haven't gotten around to reading (W)hole yet, it will probably take me a few more weeks (stupid work!). But the thread on that book made me wonder if we should start a devo book club. Pick one book and set a date a month or or so in the future to discuss it in a dedicated thread or folder.
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Post by Cake on Nov 30, 2010 16:54:32 GMT -5
But the thread on that book made me wonder if we should start a devo book club. Pick one book and set a date a month or or so in the future to discuss it in a dedicated thread or folder. I love that idea, Devogirl! Could be fun . I guess the only problem could be finding enough books that are of interest to many of us (disability -and genre wise). Alternatively or additionally to discussing the books in a thread we could hold devo book club meetings in voice chat. ;D BTW everyone, I miss our conferences... |
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Post by anais on Nov 30, 2010 17:03:50 GMT -5
Devogirl, sometimes blind guys can be a lot of devo-fun. Unpredictably, though, but it is always nice to have a handy book, just in case. One should be always prepared for the spanish inquisition Oh, and I love the book club idea! |
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Post by Emma on Nov 30, 2010 20:55:16 GMT -5
I too like the book club idea. I just found the devotee library (link to the main paradev page up top and click on library for all those who will ask me where) but wonder how old it is. (W)hole was published in 2009 and is not on there I wonder what else is missing. Since I'm lazy and get frustrated searching old posts can anyone point me to any other great books?
And devo girl how do you find your reviews on Amazon? I just looked but can't figure out how to find your profile since searching the main search gets things to buy that match your name.
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Post by devogirl on Nov 30, 2010 22:56:33 GMT -5
Here's the link to my reviews and lists on Amazon: www.amazon.com/gp/pdp/profile/A3ATKR9MOTW5VY/ref=cm_aya_bb_pdpAlso I think if you search under "people" for DevoGirl, it should come up. Oh and I wrote most of the entries in the devo library, but then I realized writing them on Amazon was easier, so I haven't updated in a long time, sorry. But it is open to anyone, if you write a 1-2 paragraph review and send it to Lee he will post it. |
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Post by Valkyrja on Dec 1, 2010 10:44:53 GMT -5
I really enjoy the literature about blind guys too, Devo... it´s not like the wheelers but... I enjoy that too.
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Post by Be As You Are on Dec 1, 2010 13:20:56 GMT -5
In my experience, the end's coming soon when you start feeling really "yuck" about it. OMG, you're so right! Yet another way our experiences seem to be similar, but I never really thought about it. Yes, exactly, I'll be obsessing for weeks or months, but then eventually I just get worn out, too much staying up late wasting time looking at the internet, or writing, or reading, or watching crap movies just to see that one little scene over and over. I'm left with a kind of hung over yuck feeling, just like after overindulging in anything else. It never ceases to amaze me when I come here and can sometimes literally find myself nodding in agreement and smiling that I am not alone in what I am feeling! When I first joined this place it kickstarted a "high phase" for me and I literally felt consumed by my devness. When that phase ended there was a physical and mental heaviness. While it was nice to be able to focus on other things, I felt a sort of post-high crash. I actually like the plateau I am at right know. Not consumed, but definitely interested! |
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Post by Inigo Montoya on Dec 1, 2010 13:27:25 GMT -5
OMG, you're so right! Yet another way our experiences seem to be similar, but I never really thought about it. Yes, exactly, I'll be obsessing for weeks or months, but then eventually I just get worn out, too much staying up late wasting time looking at the internet, or writing, or reading, or watching crap movies just to see that one little scene over and over. I'm left with a kind of hung over yuck feeling, just like after overindulging in anything else. It never ceases to amaze me when I come here and can sometimes literally find myself nodding in agreement and smiling that I am not alone in what I am feeling! When I first joined this place it kickstarted a "high phase" for me and I literally felt consumed by my devness. When that phase ended there was a physical and mental heaviness. While it was nice to be able to focus on other things, I felt a sort of post-high crash. I actually like the plateau I am at right know. Not consumed, but definitely interested! I think that's where I am right now, too. A plateau. I had told someone else that it was dead but it's not really. I'm back to buying books, etc. But I'm functional. So... Idk... it is what it is. |
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Post by lavly on Dec 3, 2010 14:30:40 GMT -5
hey elianne i feel your pain girl  . im not sure what to say but maybe coming into yahoo voice chat with us devs will make you be able to talk about it more and so inturn finsh quicker ? if your intrested just hit me up and we can talk about how to do it all. |
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Post by Neffie on Dec 6, 2010 15:06:25 GMT -5
I'm totally on one right now...I mean so horny.
It's the second time I had 2 periods in the same month this year which is odd. I'm just cracking out those eggs like no one's business and my body is throwing them out twice a month thinking 'no one's fertilising this bitch'"
Alternatively i could just have done a lot of air travel which threw my cycle off.
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