The Preparation

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"How's your day been?" she messaged him.

It had been a busy day. Just went in for a medical procedure. Silver lining of being a paraplegic is that he couldn't feel that giant metal tube being shoved up into his bladder nor the resultant several injections into his bladder…but then again if it wasn't for that paraplegia he wouldn't be having this done. meh…

"Busy… getting ready to close on the house. You? Things getting better?" was my response. Recently divorced (no kids)… I knew that she had been having a rough time with self image, confidence, sex, and men in general.

"Not really… I'm tired, stressed, and horny! Overworked and underwhelmed by the lack of attention.. probably due to lack of time. I work too much. There are not enough damn vibrators in the world to make me happy," she confessed.

There are too many toys in the world out there for that to be true, I thought to myself. Here' the dirty little secret… that self love is the foundation to a happy life… and she was missing it. AND that starts with knowing oneself and pleasing oneself… she needs to fix that and quick.

"Sybian…" I answered. I continued, "I bet I could put together the right combo of toys to satiate you and allow you the release of frustration to at least not give a fuck about your guy problems for a while so you can stop worrying."

"OK… let's do it!" she quickly answered.

Then I thought to myself… maybe there is a way we could both help each other out. After all she was a pretty girl… she wasn't the prettiest… BUT she would be so much prettier if she had a bit of self confidence and smiled like she used to back when we were in college. That's another dirty little secret… that confidence and a smile matter just as much as physical beauty.

"How about this," I started to propose… "you come for a week… I'm in charge of your pleasure.. We'll get you some new dresses.. some sexy underwear… some fun toys.. and we lock ourselves up for an entire weekend. The sole purpose is for you to enjoy yourself… take the time to figure out what you enjoy the most… release some tension and frustration."

"And what do you get out of it?" She asked.

"You help me relearn how to move… transition… different positions.. what feels good what doesn't."

"Yes please!! I'm game. Let me find a date…."

There was a slight pause and she responded, "How about a week?"

A week, I thought to myself.. I could manage that.. THAT and that would be enough time to get used to the new things I might relearn… AND that would be enough time to try a bunch of different toys, positions, touches, massages… to help her figure out what she likes… THAT and we might even be able to bring in another couple or at least a 3rd if she feels confident by the end of it.

"Perfect!" I responded.

"It is… my birthday is in April so this will be my birthday present to myself."

"We'll make it a good one," I responded. "If we are going to do this, I'm in charge. I've got a couple of rules…."

"I like where this is going… lay them out."

I started laying them out:

1. Discretion… I don't like the thought of friends knowing that you flew here just to help me relearn how to move in bed.
2. Grooming for the both of us are a must… and sexy underwear for you are also a must. I will pick out and purchase some of it as well.
3. We both go to an adult toy store together and go nuts…. Everything should be on the table.. you have to at least try everything that we end up getting. Some of the things I have in mind we won't be able to get at this store.. so I'll send you links before I purchase them.. just so you know what to expect.
4. I am in charge of the pleasure but you have to be a communicative partner… this is for you after all.
5. Come with an open mind, curiosity, and ready to release some of that frustration… no work… no exes.. no insecurities.. even if they are thoughts in your head.. you are not allowed to talk about any of them.

"You open to another couple or a possible third?" I asked.

"Rule 5," she responded… "As long as we are safe and I am comfortable with it at the time then I'm ok with it. It's about trying new things, right?"

We started to discus further details about preferences.. leather, rope, chains… she is not a fan of chains. Different positions… different types of foreplays.. sensory deprivation.. maybe going to a swingers club. I laughed in my own head… I wonder when the last time a wheeler was at a swingers club…. hell I wonder if one had ever been to one. BUT I knew I was getting ahead of myself. I asked her to send me some pictures because I wanted to see what she was working with. A side effect of her depression and frustration is that she was working out all the time. At least she was using that energy for something positive and to improve herself. I admired her for that. She was really having a rough time with the whole thing. I had been talking to her on and off for the past 6 months. It has done her good. She lost a lot of weight. She is definitely well endowed… she must at least have a D cup. Her waist was a lot skinnier than it used to be but she still had a gorgeous ass. I also loved the way her jet curly black hair rested on her shoulders and framed her face. She was a beautiful girl.. which told me that her issues were mostly in her head. If we can get her past this… there won't be any stopping her from truly enjoying her life. I'll remind her what it feels like to be wanted and just to enjoy herself… she'll help me regain some of what I thought I had lost. Win win situation.. I'm looking forward to this.








The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.
-Mark Twain

[AlrightyAphrodite]

That sounds like an awesome weekend! I sincerely hope you both have a great time, you deserve it, FGR.

[Deleted]

Just telling stories based on half truths and what not. Thanks for the support though. Hope you are doing well. :-)


The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.
-Mark Twain

[Deleted]

Interesting start up to a story filled with lots of fun and sex...:-)

[Enid]

As they say, the road to hell is paved with good intentions...

Your character might want to help his friend, but that reads as a very dangerous situation to say the least. Neither of them seem to be in the right condition to enter a role play like that. And it reads like abuse.

But to each their own, I guess...

[Deleted]

They do say that… and it very well may be true.. but before you go throwing around loaded terms… how about we define them

I can't help but think of Inigo Montoya… That word… I do not think it means what you think it means. You can't paint your judgment and perception on it all you want. BUT just so you know.. here are some definitions.


dictionary.reference.com/browse/abuse

www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/consensual

And.. they are characters that I am writing in any case. To quote one of my favorite movies.. BUCKET LIST..

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The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.
-Mark Twain

[lavly]

I do think that it's really hard to put your shit out there for ppl to read ... And it's brave for anyone to do so. So I comend you for doing it. We need more guys to write !!! We love to know how you guys see the world.

Having said so you might want to acknowledge your adios on this board. that for someone of us devs on here that passive submissive chick with low conference give us the shits . It's a roll that we get lamped in with and one we just don't associate with. At lest I know I don't.

So I wanted to punch this girl in the face . Like for real. This kind of chick deserves to be with the duch asshole that would think of her the way he does cos she has not done enough work on her self ....

This is how i felt about this character :

Like really dude you would be fine with all these rules a guy gives you ?
How low are you about your self that you can't go to a sex shop by your self and get the shit you need to get your self off ? Thats really the interaction you want with a guy on a one off ? thats really going to help your self astime ? man i dont know any chick that finds validation like that. and anyway Why do you feel you the need to have a guy, get you back to ok When the guy is clearly using you too ... I get wanting a mutual thing but this is not mutual where are your needs? how are they being met ? you don't have any of the input about what you want.

This chick is like yeah ok to everything suggested to her . When I want up get off I do my thing and get my pussy off. When i want play ... i have play with a guy that i trust ... who sees me with high regares not as some pity case. im not despret ...and even if i was i would not pick this kind of man yhat just in it for him self.
When I'm with a guy I want a deep ass conection that is more that just about sex. I want to know that just like I can see pass his shortcomings he can see past my underwear. That non judgment yet deep respect for who I am and what I bring to the table is what I seek in a partner where that be sexual or just play.

And then we have the guy in this story ... total duch!!!! I have chatted with you before and so I know this guy isn't you even if you diside to discribed your self like him.
when he discribing this chick and saying she is all right goes to the gym and what not but hey she's not amazing ... Well then I don't like that dude ether. Cos the idea that men really think like that make me sooooo soo sad . I know that do ... But I don't want to be reminded of that reality in my fiction. Cos I want to live in a better world then the fucked world I live in.

So I end up hating both the characters in this story.

This is not an attac at you mate ... And like I said it so hard to put your shit out there ... But this is maybe an explanation of why Inid ( an so many other femail devs on here ) might not be digging on this story. I was going to not say anything before about this story cos I think it sounds like I'm just hating on you. But when Inid wrote I felt like I wanted to add a deeper insite into some of chicks that have a lil but of dignaty.

But hey we read it !!! So that's got to say something about how much we are decpret for new meterial even if the story's make the chick sound like a duch.

Ps if you want to discuse the work ... I'm never too fare ... Hit me up and maybe you can show me a diffrent way of seeing ? And who knows maybe I can do that for you too ;-)

[Deleted]

I appreciate the input. Your opinion is just that your opinion.. so I have no right to say anything against it. Everyone has their own personal tastes, right? I appreciate you taking the time to participate.

I will say this. That everyone at a different time is at a different place. That's a wordy way of saying nothing… or "it is what it is" right? I agree with you that this character needs to be slapped a bit.. and needs to gain some self confidence.. BUT we all bare our own crosses in our own way. AND everyone deals with them differently.. I tend to be of the adage that unless you walk a mile in their shoes.. or role a mile on their wheels… you never know what they are going through. It will be interesting to see where these two go from here. I have a feeling that there is a lot going on in each of their lives.. and to be honest I have no idea where I want to take it next. It seemed like a simple enough beginning.


The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.
-Mark Twain

[lavly]

Fair enough :-)

Yeah I do think we have our own tast and mine is super biest. Cos this kind of chick shit me. And that kind of dude feels like he is taking advantage of her dumbness.

But I will love to read more and see the development of these characters . I'm hoping we get to see a lil more of the girls persnalty come out and maybe show the guy she isn't just a madon is destress that maybe what she brings to the sex table is intelligence and helps him see his new body in a diffent way. A way that can help him out. Maybe the toys won't be the thing that gives her confidence but her ability to help him :-)

And yes write more and write fast

[Deleted]

LOL.. much appreciated.

The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.
-Mark Twain

[Deleted]

I read it as a story and that is all I read it as....I didn't even think any further into the characters issues at this point and I just thought more like, well, I guess we will see where this goes...the excerpt is not enough to for me to judge the characters I guess...just.two people who are dealing with their problems and are going to go at it in some way or another...

[AlrightyAphrodite]

Personally, I don't have any issues with this story (other than initially, perhaps, blurring the line between fiction and reality...culpa mia). I certainly wouldn't call it abuse, I see nothing even close to that here. No one is being coererced or manipulated, I think calling it abusive is wild hyperbole.

I guess I actually see a lot of myself in that girl, I don't think she's dumb, and I also don't think that choosing to let a guy be in charge necessarily means she's got confidence issues. Not to say that she doesn't, but as I've said before, confidence is a fluid thing. I think anyone who says they've solved their confidence issues is bullshitting, and of course, after a divorce or acquiring a disability, they might be less confident physically or sexually than before. I think that's very honest and very human, not dumb or weak. Also, I have found that the best way to work through those issues is to do it with someone willing to do the work with you, but that's a rare thing.

Also, don't confuse her willingness to let him be in charge for weakness. Being in control is easy. Being vulnerable is hard. I have said here before that I'm a very happy beta in the bedroom. It isn't abuse if you choose to submit, to put yourself in someone else's hands. Personally, I find it very freeing to be with a guy that allows me to relinquish control. I especially liked Rule #5, which I imagine might have rubbed some of you (Lav, maybe) the wrong way. I can admit I have a tendency to get caught up in my own head. I've actually asked for a rule like that, but never had a guy agree to it, or be able to pull it off convincingly. I can see it's not for everyone, but hey, different strokes...

I loved this story, I loved both the characters, and I can't wait to see where it goes. I did possibly mistake fiction for reality, bit if it isn't real, I think, in some universe, it should be. It sounds to me like a nice bit of symbiosis.

[rebel6842]

These are people that obviously care for each other, he's helping her-she's helping him; with a bit of light D/s thrown in. I get it if it's not your kink, but there's nothing essentially wrong with this story. Carry on, soldier