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Post by Deleted on Oct 29, 2019 23:19:05 GMT -5
It may sound sick but I like weakness in legs esp.; I have to admit that the word "sick" throws me off a bit. You are on a message board for devs and PWD. We connect, we try to understand our attraction, we share and we are trying very much to be a positive and safe place. You are amongst like minded people and I am sure there are plenty of devs who are infatuated with legs non-functioning. I am one of them, fascinated by Paraplegia. I like the non functioning or limited functioning legs attached to the guy. Personally I would not consider it "sick". After all this board is a place where we very much counter the stigma of being "sick". Hopefully you will realize that you are not alone with your interests. I suggest posting an Intro in the Personals section so we can get to know you.
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Post by feelsunshine on Oct 31, 2019 13:43:15 GMT -5
It may sound sick but I like weakness in legs esp. in guys. not total paralysis and i don’t understand the amp thing. i love seeing guys in crutches having trouble getting around. Guys in chairs standing up, difficulty walking. any of these things gives me the equivalent of a female hard on. In fact I have it so bad that even though I’m like 98% hetero, seeing these thinks even in a woman gets me really excited. for ex check out Jillian Mercado on Google, Instagram etc. so hot. harder to find cute disabled guys online that fit the bill. thanks for letting me share. there’s nowhere else i can. I kind of remember quoting you here this morning, however, this was like 3 minutes after waking up and using my phone so I may not have saved the post successfully. And btw yes, I sometimes, especially when I know I have a lot going on throughout the day, I read PD right after waking up (resulting mostly in getting up too late), in order to be up to date and then start into the day, as my nighttime means daytime somewhere else on the globe. This information might by the way help to give an idea of how "addicted" one can be with (not the board itself but of course) the people who write on here. I've been here for almost a year and I wouldn't wanna miss the communication and discussions with the members here anymore. This brings me to Dani 's reply - yes, it's not "sickness" and nothing here "sounds sick" and I think you probably didn't really mean sick-sick but more something like "weird", maybe....? Although we devs all felt "weird" when discovering we are devs, everyone maybe in a slightly different way but still it had some kind of impact on us. But we learned and "grew". Some of us eventually "came out" to friends and parents and figured "OK, it's not that bad as we thought it would be". So, what I was actually writing this morning which didn't save properly: I watched the movie "Quid pro quo" just a few days ago and if you don't know it, I'm sure you will like it a lot. I don't want to go too much into the plot, but it certainly includes some crutches, and moreover trouble walking. The movie has been discussed here many times before. I didn't read through the discussions yet but I guess some time this weekend I'll do so.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 31, 2019 13:47:39 GMT -5
feelsunshine"Quid Pro Quo" started everything for me...if I would have not found that movie by total coincidence I would not be here. It started an avalanche of so much stuff overcoming me, I didn't think I was going to make it out "alive"...ten years of digging out of it. I like the metaphor of an "avalanche" because that it is how I felt, like I was suffocating I still think about how all that went down...nowadays we don't even have movie rental places anymore, which that is where I found it, at a Hollywood Videos store...
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Post by Deleted on Oct 31, 2019 13:54:50 GMT -5
...and the movie is not even that good but really weird actually. It caught my eye when I saw the cover of it with that girl laying on the wheelchair, literally upper shelf and I saw that picture and something inside me happened and I grabbed the movie and read through the summary. Right away I was intrigued but also felt weird about it so put it back on the shelf and didn't rent it. The first chance I had by myself, I rented it and then it all happened...I was like "wtf" to myself...what the heck is going on with me....
The one I watched after that was "Crash" which was even weirder but touching on some strange stuff as well...and again here I am years later and have learned and seen things...so there....
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Post by feelsunshine on Oct 31, 2019 14:07:15 GMT -5
Dani I still can't believe that this movie obviously never was published in Germany. I have looked for it every once in a while on marketplaces like amazon or ebay. Last week I had a conversation with linda and she reminded me that this movie exists. So I finally got all my guts together and ordered it at some Spanish dealer on ebay who shipped it to Germany. When I found it in the mailbox a few days afterwards, I felt like some drug dealer who had to smuggle goods The audio is only in English and I was not able to shut off the spanish subtitles. Hola! And yes, it's a weird movie, but the first half of the movie was perfectly devy to me... So it was already worth the money. See, jill55 that's the spitting image of how desperate "the dev life" can be as well
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Post by jill55 on Oct 31, 2019 14:07:54 GMT -5
Thanks for the tip! I can't wait to watch Quid Pro Quo. Will have to be when my husband is not home! I think he's seeing a band tomorrow night and I'm not going which could be the perfect opportunity.
I guess by "sick" I mean that I feel bad/guilty "getting off," so to speak, on someone else's misfortune. I especially feel bad that what gets me excited more than anything else is seeing someone who can't really do (or do the way AB people can) some of the things we all take for granted trying to do them (in particular walking). I can't think of anything that gets me hotter than watching a cute or semi-cute guy walking who has obvious trouble doing so due to disability (and the worse he walks, the better). It's nearly as good for me to see the same with an at least moderately attractive woman.
Recently I read a book "Wheels of Steel book 1" by Pepper Pace about an AB woman and a man with moderately severe CP (my non-professional diagnosis). I didn't like everything in the book but the thing that really got me hot was not the walking or the sex itself but in one scene, she got him "overstimulated" with touch and he had full body spasms so bad that she had to hold him until his body calmed down. I have no idea why that affected me so much but imagining someone so excited by your touch that he literally loses control over his whole body for a time seemed so exciting and romantic. I don't even know if such a thing can really happen.
I feel that this is a good place to discuss these things and try to work them out and hope I'm right.
Thanks for listening and being patient with me as I explain my perspective, thoughts and feelings even if it doesn't jibe with the way I'm supposed to talk on here. I've been a dev for many years and never discussed it with anyone so it's not that easy. (You can see my pent up feelings in the fact that I can't stop posting!!)
thanks again
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Post by Deleted on Oct 31, 2019 14:16:29 GMT -5
jill55You are in the right place...I am certain most of us totally get it. How did you realize you were a dev? I am totally into legs that don't work right or not at all or only with assistance.
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Post by lisa on Nov 1, 2019 3:01:11 GMT -5
I guess by "sick" I mean that I feel bad/guilty "getting off," so to speak, on someone else's misfortune. I especially feel bad that what gets me excited more than anything else is seeing someone who can't really do (or do the way AB people can) some of the things we all take for granted trying to do them (in particular walking). I can't think of anything that gets me hotter than watching a cute or semi-cute guy walking who has obvious trouble doing so due to disability (and the worse he walks, the better). It's nearly as good for me to see the same with an at least moderately attractive woman. Although I would consider myself a dev who is okay with her attraction and who openly states it (at least on the internet and in some surroundings in real life too), there are still some things I don't really feel very comfortable with. And one of them is the thing you mentioned. It is very hot for me to see the trouble someone has accomplishing "normal" physical tasks, like grabbing something or yes, walking, because of a disability. I think the reason it bothers me (while I'm usually fine with stating that I'm into disabled people), is that the anti-dev people are usually at least right, when they say that I "get off on the struggle". I mean, it's obviously not the most enjoyable thing for the disabled person who has trouble accomplishing these things. And the worst thing probably is that it's especially attractive to me if he or she doesn't succeed in the end. Sigh. I guess it's my own little dev hell.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 1, 2019 6:01:00 GMT -5
I guess by "sick" I mean that I feel bad/guilty "getting off," so to speak, on someone else's misfortune. I especially feel bad that what gets me excited more than anything else is seeing someone who can't really do (or do the way AB people can) some of the things we all take for granted trying to do them (in particular walking). I can't think of anything that gets me hotter than watching a cute or semi-cute guy walking who has obvious trouble doing so due to disability (and the worse he walks, the better). It's nearly as good for me to see the same with an at least moderately attractive woman. Although I would consider myself a dev who is okay with her attraction and who openly states it (at least on the internet and in some surroundings in real life too), there are still some things I don't really feel very comfortable with. And one of them is the thing you mentioned. It is very hot for me to see the trouble someone has accomplishing "normal" physical tasks, like grabbing something or yes, walking, because of a disability. I think the reason it bothers me (while I'm usually fine with stating that I'm into disabled people), is that the anti-dev people are usually at least right, when they say that I "get off on the struggle". I mean, it's obviously not the most enjoyable thing for the disabled person who has trouble accomplishing these things. And the worst thing probably is that it's especially attractive to me if he or she doesn't succeed in the end. Sigh. I guess it's my own little dev hell. lisa I totally get where you are coming from. As I've said before I used to date a couple of PWD guys in chairs and although neither of them could walk, I used to get a crazy feeling in my stomach watching them attempt to transfer from their chair to a seat or their bed etc. I used to love it in particular when they would misjudge it slightly and have to go back to their chair and start again as they got a bit unsteady for the brief second that they were in a standing up position during the transfer process. I would never want to see a PWD hurt himself but the vulnerability side to a PWD is something I'm really attracted to as it's the complete opposite to the normal gender role of the man being the strong, dominant one. I just love it!
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Post by jill55 on Nov 1, 2019 8:40:25 GMT -5
lisaAnd on the *other* hand (I am a consummate devil's advocate) - We didn't wish disability on anyone and they have it whether we appreciate it or not - lots of "imperfections" appeal to lots of different people and you don't have to be attracted to certain disabilities for that to be true. (to wit: They Can't Take That away from Me, Frank Sinatra There are many many crazy things That will keep me loving you, And with your permission, May I list a few The way you wear your hat, The way you sip your tea, The memory of all that, No, no they can't take that away from me The way your smile just beams, The way you sing off key, The way you haunt my dreams, No, no they can't take that away from me We may never never meet again, on that bumpy road to love, Still I'll always, always keep the memory of The way you hold your knife, The way we danced until three, The way you changed my life, No, no they can't take that away from me See! Plenty of men love women who look disheveled or are clumsy, can't sing, can't cook, etc. Some women love guys whose shirts are perennially buttoned wrong or hanging out the back when the shirt's tucked in or who have tags hanging out. You know what I mean. The fact that some people, some disabled people included, find devoteeism creepy has more (I think) to do with society's stigmatization of PWD as "different" and "asexual." Anyway - I can see it both ways. When I'm feeling charitable (to myself), I think it's akin to liking blue eyes or even the overweight. When I am feeling less so, I feel more like something's not right about it and would be better if I didn't feel the way I do.
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