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Post by Amee on Nov 27, 2019 14:57:33 GMT -5
I used to make up very elaborate stories surrounding my dev fantasies and imaginary crushes, as I'm sure many of you have done and do as well (I'm assuming this is what leads many of us to eventually writing dev fiction). I would often spend many months up to years with one of those stories and develop and change them over a long period of time. I recently remembered that in the earlier of those stories there was sometimes a miracle cure at the end, though often as just an "alternative ending" (so I would be able to switch between those depending on how I felt). In one of the first stories, which I elaborately developed over a really long time, there was a sequence in which the hero became able-bodied. The story had eventually developed into a kind of (slightly silly) dystopian adventure, where the hero and the female lead were part of some rebel group fighting an authoritarian government  At some point during that story the hero (who had a SCI) would get caught and put in some institution for some wild and forced experimental medical testing or something (I didn't really care about the details here). The important part was that once the rest of the rebels rescued him from that institution, he was "cured" and AB, although the "cure" would wear off again after a few weeks or months or even years (I was very flexible on that time element  ). The interesting point to me is that I now remember that I genuinely enjoyed this temporary ABness in my fantasies. For example in the above-mentioned story I would play the scene, where the female lead first sees him all tall and strong over and over in my head, really savouring and exploring how that would feel to her, when he was suddenly significantly physically superior to her. And then I really enjoyed playing with all kinds of scenes in my head, where he was physically much stronger than her. I'm wondering whether that was just my "normal" (non-dev) attraction to physically strong guys or whether there was also some dev element to it. I think that the idea that he had been disabled before was a significant factor in what made those scenes so interesting to me. So, I'm wondering: Has anyone else had temporary ABness or miracle cures as part of their fantasies? And if so, what did you like about it? Was it "devvy" in any way? |
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Post by raindrop on Nov 27, 2019 15:50:07 GMT -5
I don’t have anything to add, except that I want to read the English version of your book.
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Post by missparkle on Nov 27, 2019 16:08:29 GMT -5
I don't know if that counts here... But I have this dream, it repeats from time to time, over and over again... We are in bed, cuddled up to each other. And suddenly, we realize that where my body touches his, “damaged” parts, they work perfectly, everything, he can feel, he can move, like if my touch brings “life” into them! I try to hold him the best way I know, that the surface of my skin touches as much as possible of his. I stick firmly to him, I wrap my arms, legs around him... But when I reach new surfaces, I lose some that were covered previously. And then those don't work any more... And I try, and I try, I try so hard... But there is no way I can cover him all... And then I wake up ...
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Post by raindrop on Nov 27, 2019 16:16:32 GMT -5
I don't know if that counts here... But I have this dream, it repeats from time to time, over and over again... We are in bed, cuddled up to each other. And suddenly, we realize that where my body touches his, “damaged” parts, they work perfectly, everything, he can feel, he can move, like if my touch brings “life” into them! I try to hold him the best way I know, that the surface of my skin touches as much as possible of his. I stick firmly to him, I wrap my arms, legs around him... But when I reach new surfaces, I lose some that were covered previously. And then those don't work any more... And I try, and I try, I try so hard... But there is no way I can cover him all... And then I wake up ... Sounds like a bit of a nightmare! That’s a lot of responsibility for a person to take on. Do you feel stressed after dreams like that? |
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Post by missparkle on Nov 27, 2019 16:33:46 GMT -5
I don't know if that counts here... But I have this dream, it repeats from time to time, over and over again... We are in bed, cuddled up to each other. And suddenly, we realize that where my body touches his, “damaged” parts, they work perfectly, everything, he can feel, he can move, like if my touch brings “life” into them! I try to hold him the best way I know, that the surface of my skin touches as much as possible of his. I stick firmly to him, I wrap my arms, legs around him... But when I reach new surfaces, I lose some that were covered previously. And then those don't work any more... And I try, and I try, I try so hard... But there is no way I can cover him all... And then I wake up ... I wonder what a psychoanalyst would make of this dream? Repressed guilt ? I don't know! We should ask one!  Btw, this is "Dev only" section. No psychoanalysts, please!  |
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Post by missparkle on Nov 27, 2019 16:36:01 GMT -5
I don't know if that counts here... But I have this dream, it repeats from time to time, over and over again... We are in bed, cuddled up to each other. And suddenly, we realize that where my body touches his, “damaged” parts, they work perfectly, everything, he can feel, he can move, like if my touch brings “life” into them! I try to hold him the best way I know, that the surface of my skin touches as much as possible of his. I stick firmly to him, I wrap my arms, legs around him... But when I reach new surfaces, I lose some that were covered previously. And then those don't work any more... And I try, and I try, I try so hard... But there is no way I can cover him all... And then I wake up ... Sounds like a bit of a nightmare! That’s a lot of responsibility for a person to take on. Do you feel stressed after dreams like that?
I feel sad, like I failed.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 27, 2019 18:33:40 GMT -5
This is interesting since I have written a story like this, well I guess I do have some fantasy about it then since I wrote a story about it. The story was a bit "out there" but I actually had fun and enjoyed dabbling a little bit in "magical" stuff with the story, drifting away from reality.
It's on the Fiction Blog under "For The Love Of Not Walking" and it deals with a guy who has a complete SCI but something happens to him that gives him sensation back for a bit at short intervals. It puts him in a difficult situation but I won't give away more on why that is and what causes this to happen to him.
So I guess it was a little something that ran around in my head and I ended up writing it down. But all in all it's not specfically something I ever fantasize about, usually my dream guys don't ever walk...
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Post by linda on Nov 28, 2019 0:51:07 GMT -5
I don't know if that counts here... But I have this dream, it repeats from time to time, over and over again... We are in bed, cuddled up to each other. And suddenly, we realize that where my body touches his, “damaged” parts, they work perfectly, everything, he can feel, he can move, like if my touch brings “life” into them! I try to hold him the best way I know, that the surface of my skin touches as much as possible of his. I stick firmly to him, I wrap my arms, legs around him... But when I reach new surfaces, I lose some that were covered previously. And then those don't work any more... And I try, and I try, I try so hard... But there is no way I can cover him all... And then I wake up ... Ooooooooh, this reminds me of my experience with my boyfriend. After I had given him a leg massage for the first time, he could stretch his legs much better and had less problems with spasms. We were both so happy and thought that would work constantly. We were only waiting for our next meeting to „refresh“ the positive effect (well, we were longing for every next meeting of course for many reasons). Unfortunately, that only worked once. Every other massage didn’t have the same effect on him. What a disappointment! There I was already thinking I had some magic healing powers... ;-) |
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Post by Amee on Nov 28, 2019 10:02:56 GMT -5
I don’t have anything to add, except that I want to read the English version of your book. Haha, thanks! I don't think I've ever written much of that particular "story" down, most of it was just in my head. Even if I have, it must be all gone now. Last spring my computer crashed and I lost all of my data, including every story I had ever written down. |
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Post by Amee on Nov 28, 2019 10:19:29 GMT -5
This is interesting since I have written a story like this, well I guess I do have some fantasy about it then since I wrote a story about it. The story was a bit "out there" but I actually had fun and enjoyed dabbling a little bit in "magical" stuff with the story, drifting away from reality. It's on the Fiction Blog under "For The Love Of Not Walking" and it deals with a guy who has a complete SCI but something happens to him that gives him sensation back for a bit at short intervals. It puts him in a difficult situation but I won't give away more on why that is and what causes this to happen to him. So I guess it was a little something that ran around in my head and I ended up writing it down. But all in all it's not specfically something I ever fantasize about, usually my dream guys don't ever walk... Very interesting, dani! Although the way it sounds to me, there is no actual "devvy appeal" to you in (complete) able-bodiedness/cure, right? I could probably add that my hunch is that this isn't part of devness for me either, but rather just stems from - aside from my devness - also finding strong and muscular guys attractive. And I actually think that this more mainstream attraction to physical strength is the reason that I also find it attractive when a PWD is strong and muscular. But I still feel like there is something somehow a little different/special in the whole "cure" or temporary AB scenario for me, although I can't really pinpoint it. That's why I'm wondering if anyone else has any experience with that linda and missparkle I can't read from your posts if that is true for you, but the whole idea of healing/comforting/relieving pain is definitely very hot to me and a strong part of my devness. But it's separate to me from the appeal of ABness I described in the opening post. |
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Post by linda on Nov 28, 2019 10:57:27 GMT -5
Amee, sorry I didn’t answer your OP. It just made me think of that specific situation so I wrote about it. I was very happy that I could give him some relief in that situation. However, it just felt like the regular kind of happiness of doing something good for someone you love. The healing idea is not part of my devness in general.
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Post by cilantro on Nov 28, 2019 11:41:36 GMT -5
linda and missparkle I can't read from your posts if that is true for you, but the whole idea of healing/comforting/relieving pain is definitely very hot to me and a strong part of my devness. But it's separate to me from the appeal of ABness I described in the opening post. I know this isn't really what the OP was asking about, but this is the most devvy thing for me... a world of fantasies has been founded on it |
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Post by raindrop on Nov 28, 2019 13:32:13 GMT -5
I don’t have anything to add, except that I want to read the English version of your book. Haha, thanks! I don't think I've ever written much of that particular "story" down, most of it was just in my head. Even if I have, it must be all gone now. Last spring my computer crashed and I lost all of my data, including every story I had ever written down. I am sorry you lost your data. How truly upsetting. A while back we thought someone had broken into our home, my 14yr old came home alone with my 6yr old and to make a long story short our house had not been broken into - but rather people who forgot to lock the door etc.... anyways, the reason that is part of the story was I was worried my laptop had been stolen with over a dozen complete and incomplete stories I had written, and as I drove home I just kept thinking they were all gone. It was heart wrenching. I now have it all saved digitally on line and the computer automatically updates it. It is a bit pricey but worth it. I also store all my photos that way too. |
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Post by Amee on Nov 28, 2019 14:03:56 GMT -5
Haha, thanks! I don't think I've ever written much of that particular "story" down, most of it was just in my head. Even if I have, it must be all gone now. Last spring my computer crashed and I lost all of my data, including every story I had ever written down. I am sorry you lost your data. How truly upsetting. A while back we thought someone had broken into our home, my 14yr old came home alone with my 6yr old and to make a long story short our house had not been broken into - but rather people who forgot to lock the door etc.... anyways, the reason that is part of the story was I was worried my laptop had been stolen with over a dozen complete and incomplete stories I had written, and as I drove home I just kept thinking they were all gone. It was heart wrenching. I now have it all saved digitally on line and the computer automatically updates it. It is a bit pricey but worth it. I also store all my photos that way too. Thank you raindrop! Yes, it was not fun... Especially as it was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. I took my laptop to a data recovery specialist and he first told me that he could probably save it, then called me and told me that it was really strange that there was nothing on there at all, so he probably couldn't reconstruct anything. Then he called again the next day and told me that he had good news and that he had been able to recover my data after all. And then when I went there to pick up my laptop and he showed me the data he had recovered, I realized that it was less than 1% of everything I had had on my laptop and it was just the "Downloads" file - I later went through the documents he had recovered and there literally was not a single one I had any use for, lol. I deleted them all after that. I'd had two novel-length finished stories on there, a couple of unfinished ones or fragments and a diary I had written about the year before. Also papers I had written for University, summaries and abstracts I had used for studying and would have really needed for a big upcoming exam, lots of photos and probably some things I'll never remember I even had on there... |
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Post by Amee on Nov 28, 2019 14:07:34 GMT -5
It’s definitely not something that’s ever been part of my fantasies. In fact, my fantasies have to be so very realistic, a miracle AB moment/recovery would definitely ruin it for me. It's funny, because I think this need for realism may be the reason why it didn't really come up in my later fantasies, when I was an adult. My fantasies as a teen used to be much more silly and "out there". But I just realized now that I remembered those fantasies, that they do still have an appeal for me. I would also like to add that I absolutely hated miracle cures in books I read! They would completely ruin the story for me |
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At some point during that story the hero (who had a SCI) would get caught and put in some institution for some wild and forced experimental medical testing or something (I didn't really care about the details here). The important part was that once the rest of the rebels rescued him from that institution, he was "cured" and AB, although the "cure" would wear off again after a few weeks or months or even years (I was very flexible on that time element 
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Btw, this is "Dev only" section. No psychoanalysts, please! 
