Post by MindOut on Nov 29, 2008 1:38:26 GMT -5
On Thanksgiving Day Dave posted this message.
Last thing I can remember was her last words to me “I hate you so much” in tears. Leaving someone isn’t easy at all and the reason to leave makes it even worst. It’s been 9 months but it felt like it was just yesterday. There hasn’t been a day that has gone by without thinking of her. Being “different” hasn’t brought me any advantage besides parking. Being an Asian American makes thing even worst. We are expected to do our best and there isn’t such a thing to be depressed. It’s been a really tough year, I hope after writing this I can put this massive weight down. I don’t agree with the concept of to love and lost is better than not knowing. I have been so hard on myself trying figure what I’ve done wrong and in doing so I slipped into depression without even knowing. Being disabled has already been hard enough but why live it in depression? I deserve to be happy. Today will be a thankful day for me to remind myself I deserve the best too. I should live my life with a smile on the outside and inside. It’s time for me to start a new chapter of my life.
After, Dave clicked post he took a deep breath and he felt as if a mountain has been removed from his chest. He spent the rest of the day happier and just enjoying the family’s company.
As the annoying alarm buzzed him awake, his dad put him in his chair. He was nervous yet excited that the day began. He was ready by 8:15 waiting on his pca, as usual he is late. With his neutral colors clothing, black winter coat, black cap, khaki pants, and beige lugz shoes. The final for his English class was making him feel sick in his stomach. Before he went in, he noticed his palms were starting to get sweaty. He felt like he was in that room for an eternity but his lack of self confidence only made things worst. As soon as he finished he rushed toward the elevators and as usual people rushed on as if he didn’t exist. He had to wait for next one. When he entered the room everyone looked to see who it was. His face quickly turned red feeling embarrassed. He looked down not giving anyone eye contact. He didn’t like the chemistry class because everyone is really stuck up. It is 2:20 minute of mind numbing information. He doesn’t even know why chemistry is related to his major of software development. Oh well life doesn’t have real explanation either.
Last thing I can remember was her last words to me “I hate you so much” in tears. Leaving someone isn’t easy at all and the reason to leave makes it even worst. It’s been 9 months but it felt like it was just yesterday. There hasn’t been a day that has gone by without thinking of her. Being “different” hasn’t brought me any advantage besides parking. Being an Asian American makes thing even worst. We are expected to do our best and there isn’t such a thing to be depressed. It’s been a really tough year, I hope after writing this I can put this massive weight down. I don’t agree with the concept of to love and lost is better than not knowing. I have been so hard on myself trying figure what I’ve done wrong and in doing so I slipped into depression without even knowing. Being disabled has already been hard enough but why live it in depression? I deserve to be happy. Today will be a thankful day for me to remind myself I deserve the best too. I should live my life with a smile on the outside and inside. It’s time for me to start a new chapter of my life.
After, Dave clicked post he took a deep breath and he felt as if a mountain has been removed from his chest. He spent the rest of the day happier and just enjoying the family’s company.
As the annoying alarm buzzed him awake, his dad put him in his chair. He was nervous yet excited that the day began. He was ready by 8:15 waiting on his pca, as usual he is late. With his neutral colors clothing, black winter coat, black cap, khaki pants, and beige lugz shoes. The final for his English class was making him feel sick in his stomach. Before he went in, he noticed his palms were starting to get sweaty. He felt like he was in that room for an eternity but his lack of self confidence only made things worst. As soon as he finished he rushed toward the elevators and as usual people rushed on as if he didn’t exist. He had to wait for next one. When he entered the room everyone looked to see who it was. His face quickly turned red feeling embarrassed. He looked down not giving anyone eye contact. He didn’t like the chemistry class because everyone is really stuck up. It is 2:20 minute of mind numbing information. He doesn’t even know why chemistry is related to his major of software development. Oh well life doesn’t have real explanation either.