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Post by Maurine on Feb 15, 2015 5:17:44 GMT -5
As for the sexualisation of fears, I've always been afraid of being pitied, especially for physical suffering, but also for other problems. On the other hand, I get a dev thrill out of devvy fantasies about myself. I feel sexy in my bf's wheelchair, but I only use it inside every now and then. If I used it outside, I'd be torn between a dev thrill and horror. The dev thrill I get out of devvy fantasies about myself is in a way stronger, but it also feels like an untameable beast. My normal devness is much richer and more complex.
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Post by Maurine on Feb 17, 2015 6:44:21 GMT -5
tori, imagine if that guy knew what an impact his arm cast had on a little girl so many years ago! It's fascinating how such small things can influence our lives so drastically. Obviously there are children somewhere everyday who see someone with a cast or crutches, and if all of them became devs, the world would be full of them. But I'm sure such childhood experiences can trigger devness in some. It would be interesting to know if there's also a genetic component to it and what kind of role it plays.
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Post by blueskye101 on Feb 17, 2015 22:44:37 GMT -5
I always wanted to try out crutches, wheelchairs when I was young. Mostly just fantasizing what my "guy" would be like. My Aunt had polio when young and wore full braces and crutches. Was always fascinated with how they worked and the rhythm of her walk.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2015 19:09:57 GMT -5
I have always wanted to try sitting in a wheelchair and having a bit of a push around, I have no desire to go out in public in a wheelchair, or to try and pretend that I am disabled in front of other people, but I want to know what it feels like to sit/push/turn/manoeuvre a chair. To try to reach things, to do things froma chair. To imagine what it feels like to not be able to move my legs or my torso to do stuff, not to actually be disabled though. This rings especially true for me .. I have the exact same feelings. often when I'm alone I will try to imagine what it feels like to not move my legs. I will sit on the bed and then try getting changed without moving my legs. sometimes at work sitting at my desk I will try and see how long I can sit at my desk with out moving my legs, or even when no one is looking lift my legs with my hands and cross them. I don't have BIID or anything I think it is more an empathy thing, I'm not really sure, but it does turn me on when I do these things. wow it feels strangely uplifting to put that in words. hope I didn't share too much.
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Post by whisperingpines on Mar 20, 2015 13:48:28 GMT -5
Shortly: yes,yes,yes! I absolutely LOVED his chair! I loved sitting on it and play with it. I also sat on it while he was playing and being oh, so sporty. I even took his other chair and went out wheeling with him near his house. Mostly because I knew everybody would know I don't really need it.. I can walk. And the best part was always getting up and putting the chair away.
But I needed to know how it feels. Now I know and I don't really want to try it anymore, even if I could. It has lost its glory so to speak. But I still love the way it looks and I would like to touch it, lean against it or sit on his lap. It still looks sexy.. And it's quite sad that all the thrill of trying it out has faded away.
Same goes with the hand control in his car. Once I learned how to use it, it wasn't that hot anymore. But I wanted to try it!
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2015 14:02:15 GMT -5
Like whisperingpines, I learned how the hand controls worked, and that thrill was gone. They felt too foreign to me anyways. As for his chair, I get more of a thrill being on his lap than occupying it when he's not. Besides, the one time I was playing around and tried to do a wheelie, I was on my ass faster than I could blink (which he found absolutely hillarious). Now, years ago before I found out what was really going on with me, I would have seriously leaned towards the BIID end of the spectrum. I think I was so desperate to satisfy my "cravings", and that seemed like the logical answer.
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Post by greenbean on Mar 20, 2015 22:00:29 GMT -5
I would really like to try out a nice sporty looking wheelchair, I've only rode in hospital clunkers before. My main attraction is to guys with CP. I especially like it when one or more of their limbs needs to be strapped into place and I kinda want to be strapped into a wheelchair too, even though I am sure it would be uncomfortable. When I was younger I used to walk with an affected gait (aka scissoring my legs, limping, making athetoid movements). I always did that in private btw. Sometimes I still have these weird urges to do this but I don't because it seems weird... even for me...
So the hardware I like (and wouldn't say no to trying out), but the it's definitely the actual physicality of disability that appeals to me most.
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Post by lucretia on Mar 21, 2015 9:11:07 GMT -5
His van has electronic hand controls, our car has the temporary kind. I never tried them in the van because you can just drive with or without them. I HAVE used them in the car as I've been too lazy to remove them... and the first time was kind of a rush. That could also have been fear as I nearly took out the handicapped parking sign when I was parking because I pushed the wrong bar... LOL His chair is so customized for him that it's actually uncomfortable for me to sit in it... but I have. When he's transferred to the LAST available chair... But I DO like to use it as foot rest.
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