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Post by ons on Feb 9, 2018 5:49:01 GMT -5
So Karma - whether one believes in it or not, does come around and boy does it sting.
You see, all I wanted was a NSA one night stand. Well, I did meet someone who took my breath away. I wasn't expecting this to happen and my regret is I let my guard down. I allowed feelings to develop. I allowed him to hit me like a ten-wheeler truck that came out of nowhere. And after 24 hours of what seemed to me was heaven, came months of pure hell and torment because just as swiftly as he came into my life is as quickly as he was gone. there was nothing after that. And most times, nothingness hurts more than goodbye.
So it would seem like he too, was looking for an NSA one night stand. He just decided to play on my emotions weeks before we met up. He did it quite well too. What's that song of Madonna? "Take a bow, this night is over, this masquerade is getting older ... you deserve an award for the role that you played".
So yes, my emotions are spent. I have nothing more to give for the time being anyway.
So boys - if all you want is a one night stand, just say so. Don't bother with anything else. No matter what one says about women (and the feminists will be shooting me now), about how strong we are and how we should be able to take any crap. That's a load of hogwash. Once you steal our hearts, it becomes a long painful process to get over you.
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Post by wonk on Feb 9, 2018 5:59:13 GMT -5
All the things that you have shared with us over all these years makes me want to tell you
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Post by ons on Feb 9, 2018 6:09:41 GMT -5
Oh Wonk, if you only knew how hard I can be. It's just this one that I let slip through the cracks...
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Post by devine on Feb 9, 2018 7:19:18 GMT -5
So Karma - whether one believes in it or not, does come around and boy does it sting. You see, all I wanted was a NSA one night stand. Well, I did meet someone who took my breath away. I wasn't expecting this to happen and my regret is I let my guard down. I allowed feelings to develop. I allowed him to hit me like a ten-wheeler truck that came out of nowhere. And after 24 hours of what seemed to me was heaven, came months of pure hell and torment because just as swiftly as he came into my life is as quickly as he was gone. there was nothing after that. And most times, nothingness hurts more than goodbye. So it would seem like he too, was looking for an NSA one night stand. He just decided to play on my emotions weeks before we met up. He did it quite well too. What's that song of Madonna? "Take a bow, this night is over, this masquerade is getting older ... you deserve an award for the role that you played". So yes, my emotions are spent. I have nothing more to give for the time being anyway. So boys - if all you want is a one night stand, just say so. Don't bother with anything else. No matter what one says about women (and the feminists will be shooting me now), about how strong we are and how we should be able to take any crap. That's a load of hogwash. Once you steal our hearts, it becomes a long painful process to get over you. Be careful what you wish for?
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Post by Deleted on Feb 9, 2018 8:20:08 GMT -5
I was reluctant to share my story, but maybe I should.
About 6 years ago I had my first marriage and divorce all in the same year. We had been living together for 5 years and things had become rocky to say the least. So we decided to say I DO to try and make things get better (Never try that. Ever). After a few months of alone, I rolled out into the dating sites (Way too soon)
I met a girl there 10 years younger than I great with a baby. She was actually interested in me (so I thought). She was going through a divorce herself and it was just nice to feel wanted. One thing lead to another and a long story short in the very day I was moving her in a third party sent me evidence of her with another guy at thievpwrsons place just the night before. So that was my first huge mistake was going in too fast on someone I didn’t even know
Now here is where the story takes a massive left turn...
About 3 years go by and the girl and I are casual again just on a friendly level so I could see the child again etc. The girl’s mom started commenting on my Facebook replies with returned sarcasm. It was like we shared the same twisted sense of humor. She loved football and sex, and let’s be honest, that’s all it took to get my attention.
In another one thing leads to another, the Mom decides she’s coming to see me. I had formulated this epic plan. I was gonna tell my ex off one day and end it with “I banged your mom” and mean it. And I did. But then I did it again. And again.
Once she went back to where she lives, we began talking daily. I swore I’d never do a long distance relationship again and here I was...
Remember that whole cheating thing? Yea...so after two years of me being left in limbo with the Mom, she has been sleeping with several guys and once I found out all I got was “I’ll fuck who I want just like I did you”
I don’t know why, but the last year or so she alone has caused my anxiety and depression with this. I feel incompetent and inferior to ABs. And I don’t want to anymore.
Well I’m sure I look like a major slut that belongs on Jerry Springer, but just know you aren’t alone with an unplanned broken heart.
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Post by shape on Feb 9, 2018 12:33:20 GMT -5
@theboulder88, you might have been as naive as I have been. Internet just sucks. Live sucks. But never allow that... Ehem... No-lady bring you down any longer.
Some people don't deserve to break us down... I learned the hard way. And I know it's easy to say it...
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Post by mona on Feb 9, 2018 16:05:56 GMT -5
My question is just: What has Karma to do with all that?
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Post by matisse on Feb 9, 2018 18:51:47 GMT -5
My question is just: What has Karma to do with all that? Yeah I had the same question. Unless you have done the same thing to someone else, I don't see it as karma. I wonder why he did what he did, why do you think so? Since it was agreed to be NSA, I don't see a motivation.
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Post by Mets on Feb 9, 2018 18:53:14 GMT -5
My question is just: What has Karma to do with all that? Just assuming here, but my guess is that ons has been on the other side of the heartbreak before, and is now facing the same difficult cards that she once dealt out herself.
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Feb 9, 2018 21:03:31 GMT -5
it happens to everyone, it's happened to me more than a few times. The best you can do is alter the way you do things a bit, but beyond that, no one can fully protect themselves from getting hurt. At some point, you just have to go back into the fire. As Far as the Karma thing goes, it sounds like you're blaming yourself for what you're going through, if that's the case then I'd ask you to ask yourself if you were honest with all of the people that you yourself may've hurt. If the answer is yes then I'd say you have nothing to feel bad about beyond the feelings you're experiencing. If some ppl hate you for the pain you've caused then so be it. There are Devs that I will never ever speak to again but that doesn't mean I feel like they should suffer because of the hurt I've felt. More importantly, it wouldn't be justifiable if I had the opposite attitude either. Now, if you really think you could've handled some of those past situations better, than all you can do is try and "do better" next time.
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Post by mona on Feb 10, 2018 1:29:27 GMT -5
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Post by Corey on Feb 10, 2018 19:58:04 GMT -5
So Karma - whether one believes in it or not, does come around and boy does it sting. You see, all I wanted was a NSA one night stand. Well, I did meet someone who took my breath away. I wasn't expecting this to happen and my regret is I let my guard down. I allowed feelings to develop. I allowed him to hit me like a ten-wheeler truck that came out of nowhere. And after 24 hours of what seemed to me was heaven, came months of pure hell and torment because just as swiftly as he came into my life is as quickly as he was gone. there was nothing after that. And most times, nothingness hurts more than goodbye. So it would seem like he too, was looking for an NSA one night stand. He just decided to play on my emotions weeks before we met up. He did it quite well too. What's that song of Madonna? "Take a bow, this night is over, this masquerade is getting older ... you deserve an award for the role that you played". So yes, my emotions are spent. I have nothing more to give for the time being anyway. So boys - if all you want is a one night stand, just say so. Don't bother with anything else. No matter what one says about women (and the feminists will be shooting me now), about how strong we are and how we should be able to take any crap. That's a load of hogwash. Once you steal our hearts, it becomes a long painful process to get over you. What do you want to accomplish by posting this?
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Post by elbs on Feb 11, 2018 8:58:03 GMT -5
My sympathies for you. Don't feel too silly - your heart doesn't know what your head was planning for this encounter.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 11, 2018 10:10:10 GMT -5
So Karma - whether one believes in it or not, does come around and boy does it sting. You see, all I wanted was a NSA one night stand. Well, I did meet someone who took my breath away. I wasn't expecting this to happen and my regret is I let my guard down. I allowed feelings to develop. I allowed him to hit me like a ten-wheeler truck that came out of nowhere. And after 24 hours of what seemed to me was heaven, came months of pure hell and torment because just as swiftly as he came into my life is as quickly as he was gone. there was nothing after that. And most times, nothingness hurts more than goodbye. So it would seem like he too, was looking for an NSA one night stand. He just decided to play on my emotions weeks before we met up. He did it quite well too. What's that song of Madonna? "Take a bow, this night is over, this masquerade is getting older ... you deserve an award for the role that you played". So yes, my emotions are spent. I have nothing more to give for the time being anyway. So boys - if all you want is a one night stand, just say so. Don't bother with anything else. No matter what one says about women (and the feminists will be shooting me now), about how strong we are and how we should be able to take any crap. That's a load of hogwash. Once you steal our hearts, it becomes a long painful process to get over you. What do you want to accomplish by posting this? Maybe she just needed to vent...a broken heart doesn’t exactly have a master plan
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Post by Deleted on Feb 11, 2018 11:24:15 GMT -5
Ugh. Feelings.
Look, it happens to the best of us. I've had my feelings hurt more than a few times and I'm sure I've done my fair share of causing hurt feelings in others, I never planned on any of it. No one does. I'm sorry that you got caught up in emotional shittiness but I doubt it was the first time and it definitely won't be the last. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and soldier on. Maybe this is a good opportunity to reevaluate what you really want, or at the very least, an experience to look back on the next time you meet someone that takes your breath away.
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