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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 28, 2013 23:43:09 GMT -5
- I've realized there is a lifetime meter, measured in hours spent, in how long you can be around me/help me with things before getting burnt out and hating me. Friends I see once a week or so usually never hit this limit. Roommates last on average about two years. Morning aides last around 5. Office assistants average about 7. - Like a transgendered person, or someone with BIID, my actual body and the way I look and move looks nothing like how I perceive myself, despite being born disabled. Seeing myself on video is shocking and horrifying every single time. I've been on TV a few times, but I'm mortified to watch it. One of the only times I've ever cried as an adult was seeing footage of me around 6 years old, W sitting on the floor, opening presents Christmas morning. I was so naive, innocent, and totally unaware of what my disability truly meant... and seeing me there was heart breaking. - I don't think I'll live past 50. And I think I'll die single. I cleaned out my 401k with this thought in mind. - If Life Saver ever fails, I don't think I'll recover financially. I'll probably remain permanently unemployed. - I allow women to keep their sexual relationships with me a secret from everyone we/they know because I don't blame them. - After a brief adjustment period, I believe the world, and the people I care about, would live happier and easier lives if I didn't exist. - Most women f*ck me because they enjoy it (or so I tell myself), but I've received pity sex (and pity head, and pity hand jobs) LOTS of times... and I don't care. I've been f*cked by girls who just want my money/me to buy them things... I don't mind that either. - I hate when I can feel that I've gone past someone's threshold for helping me in a given day/week/month, but I still have to ask them because I have no other option. - I think my standards are too high. I'll never accept a woman who'd stoop so low that she'd be with me (devs excluded). - If I did somehow marry, I'm terrified of the previously mentioned burnout effect, which seems unstoppable. Really?? You're a G, bro. I've always thought you were a G. Don't get soft on me now Am I the only one who thinks he meant nothing by it? Sure I suppose it can be interpreted as a bit of a smarmy comment. But in all honesty this the first time that I can ever recall E divulging this side of his of his life before. The not so Gangstah side of being a cripp. I will be the first to admit that I was surprised by what he said. Because frankly, that's not the E we're used too. And I think that's all Sova meant by it.
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 28, 2013 21:50:06 GMT -5
...well this is awkward...but thanks? hahahaha I think real nerds use Linux, don´t they :-) In case anyone is interested I LOVE when people say "real [insert group] do this [arbitrary activity]" its my FAVOURITE. lold ;D
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 28, 2013 21:27:28 GMT -5
I'm on okcupid. I used to be on pof. I met amazing guys online so don't be afraid of the idea of it. Just be careful. This is how I wrote on my profile about being a dev. 'I have a 'fetish.' I just consider it a preference. I like guys that are disabled. I'm mostly into guys that are paralyzed or amputees. It's just something I find attractive and sexy. This doesn't mean I'll go out with any guy that is disabled. I still have standards and I also still date able bodied guys.' if only everyone could be that brave.... great job
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 27, 2013 22:28:42 GMT -5
Love the name
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 27, 2013 21:46:31 GMT -5
man that's to good to be true. hope u buy one and make some crippled boys drool. lol
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 26, 2013 21:44:25 GMT -5
So,......... revenge? since we are half way there, -What about your dark side? -What is the absolute worst thing about your disability / health / and it's consequences. What are you afraid of or insecure about. Are there things you would try really hard to hide from your partner / future partner -And how does that make you feel? - I've realized there is a lifetime meter, measured in hours spent, in how long you can be around me/help me with things before getting burnt out and hating me. Friends I see once a week or so usually never hit this limit. Roommates last on average about two years. Morning aides last around 5. Office assistants average about 7. - Like a transgendered person, or someone with BIID, my actual body and the way I look and move looks nothing like how I perceive myself, despite being born disabled. Seeing myself on video is shocking and horrifying every single time. I've been on TV a few times, but I'm mortified to watch it. One of the only times I've ever cried as an adult was seeing footage of me around 6 years old, W sitting on the floor, opening presents Christmas morning. I was so naive, innocent, and totally unaware of what my disability truly meant... and seeing me there was heart breaking. - I don't think I'll live past 50. And I think I'll die single. I cleaned out my 401k with this thought in mind. - If Life Saver ever fails, I don't think I'll recover financially. I'll probably remain permanently unemployed. - I allow women to keep their sexual relationships with me a secret from everyone we/they know because I don't blame them. - After a brief adjustment period, I believe the world, and the people I care about, would live happier and easier lives if I didn't exist. - Most women f*ck me because they enjoy it (or so I tell myself), but I've received pity sex (and pity head, and pity hand jobs) LOTS of times... and I don't care. I've been f*cked by girls who just want my money/me to buy them things... I don't mind that either. - I hate when I can feel that I've gone past someone's threshold for helping me in a given day/week/month, but I still have to ask them because I have no other option. - I think my standards are too high. I'll never accept a woman who'd stoop so low that she'd be with me (devs excluded). - If I did somehow marry, I'm terrified of the previously mentioned burnout effect, which seems unstoppable. I totally get the BIID thing 100% I don't know if you saw it but I posted the same sort of thing on here once in regards to my voice. I made a vid for a FB friend and was totally shocked and mortified to learn that actually sounded crippled too. I had no clue whatsoever. Well it's true I stutter and am quite the awkward talker at times. I never thought I sounded crippled. But literally the first thought that popped into my head was, "holy fuck, you can totally tell I have CP just by the sound of my voice...." Well I equally detest watching myself on video it really comes as no surprise as to how crippled I look, because of course I know I am one crippled bastard! But the voice? that still has me floured man... Yuck! You really think people would be better off if u didn't exist? Well I think I speak on behalf of alot of people here when I say, "you're so full of shit my friend!" Nevertheless, I understand how you feel. I can't even imagine my friends looking after me like that. I wouldn't be able to stand it. Only my parents or a PSW would do. That's kinda how I feel about the shit thing. I can get very anxious about it. Mainly because you have to rely on other people to help u. Sometimes you don't go as well as you wanted, thus you left wondering if it will strike again in the middle of the night. Or later that same day. I don't want some to have to lift me on the can more than once a day. I can't stand it. Luckily that rarely ever happens, But I'm still not happy if I believe the trip could've gone better.
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 22, 2013 23:19:59 GMT -5
So,......... revenge? since we are half way there, -What about your dark side?
-What is the absolute worst thing about your disability / health / and it's consequences. What are you afraid of or insecure about. Are there things you would try really hard to hide from your partner / future partner -And how does that make you feel? For me it's not being able to take a sh*t whenever I want. that's really the only thing that I can't stand anymore. I don't think there is anything I'd feel the need to hide tho.
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 22, 2013 0:41:19 GMT -5
A$$y I still can't believe how well you understand devs. That is 100% correct IMO. aww thanks, you made me
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 22, 2013 0:24:18 GMT -5
And my answer to your question would be yes. But it depends on how u look at it. It sounded to me like you were asking if a dev could see the person above the disability or the disability was more important than the person. I would venture to bet that 99% of devs here would say the person comes first. Ie, compatibility, love, connection are what really matter. This does not mean that the disability isn't important however. There was a thread in which we discussed on whether or not devs would be ok if there were a cure for disabled people and whether or not they would stay with their SOs if they opted to be cured. A resounding, and almost unanimous number of devs said they would stay with their SOs, and most felt down right icky at the thought of anyone feeling any different. Here's the thing, while I believe everyone would try to continue their relationships if their SO were cured, I don't think that everyone would succeed. And that's not because devs can't look past the disability or because the disability is more important than the person. It just means that's what works for them, no different than being gay imo. Interpret that however you wish.
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 21, 2013 23:18:00 GMT -5
Perhaps we should pin certain threads of importance to the board so we no longer have to keep answering question that we have all answered 1000 times over. The newbs can read at their leisure while the rest of us can stop rolling our eyes. Just a thought.
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 19, 2013 20:38:37 GMT -5
I'm jealous, I can't clench my eye at all... Try some tequila, maybe that does the trick last time I did that I ended up in a ditch.... Refer to the "Yours Truly" pic thread. ;D
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 19, 2013 20:33:54 GMT -5
Happy Birthday bud, know you're having a better day than all of us right now.
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 19, 2013 4:46:49 GMT -5
At the sportsbar I was waiting to get a drink, and ths young guy next to me asks me, with a puzzled face and somewhat hesitantly, "So...uhm...are you a real one?" Somehow I knew what he meant right away, so I burst into laughter and told him that I, in fact, wás a real one For some reason this reminded me of one of my favorite bar stories. I was out early one evening after work visiting a bartender I knew (who was totally a dev and didn't know!) with my friend, shooting back half-priced tequila. There was only one other guy at the bar, so naturally he comes over to me and offers to buy me a drink, which, of course, I never turn down. And of course, he asked me what "my condition" was. "My condition?" I said. "Isn't it obvious?" He looked at me puzzled as my friend dropped a straw into my tequila and lowered the shot glass so I could drain it. I looked back up to the guy, one eye clenched shut from swallowing the shot, "That's my seventh tequila at 8 PM on a Tuesday. My condition? I'm a f*cking alcoholic." I'm jealous, I can't clench my eye at all...
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 19, 2013 0:55:40 GMT -5
lol assy is that where missuga is from ? is this who u mean? and they are from Sweden, and I wouldn't categorize them as Death Metal. hahaha. ;D
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Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Apr 18, 2013 1:41:36 GMT -5
Them Finns sure make some gewd death metal! haha. Welcome
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