Post by cilantro on Jan 26, 2023 17:31:22 GMT -5
Oh boy guys, it's been awhile since I've been on here. After the end of my last relationship I have been trying to avoid all devvy things, after all who wants to repeat the same challenges in multiple relationships. But after some new devvy hookups and experiences I just can't stay away. I'll always be a dev, and the longer I avoid it the more ashamed and bad I feel, back to PD it is. Here's a review of some stuff that happened while I was away:
A few months ago I dated a brilliant non-binary person with CP for like a week. Unfortunately they had a fall right at the start of us seeing eachother and I think felt a bit uncomfortable with letting me caretake so early on (especially knowing my history). I was very obsessed with them for a bit, but they didn't want to continue seeing me because they got very busy with PHD stuff. Honestly, it was probably for the best.
I professionally cuddled for the first time! We originally connected because he loves theatre and has CP and I boldly said "hi" on FB years ago. We loosely kept in contact, but he is nonverbal and I never felt a romantic connection. He hired me to cuddle for a couple hours which I thought went really well until the next day when he professed his adoration and asked me to go on a date for the millionth time. I had set the boundary that the cuddling would be non-romantic and felt he crossed it by asking me out after so no more cuddling for him. But I would definitely professionally cuddle again with somebody else in the future.
Finally, what actually got me back on here, I went to London for a family trip and ended up taking a day to meet up with someone I've been talking to for forever from PD. We had the best hookup of my life, and I was heartbroken I could only stay the one night. It was my first experience with someone with SCI (which is my primary dev interest) and it definitely fit into my classic dev fantasy. Leaving that person made me so eager to find what I'm looking for at home.
It all just has made me want to find something close to me that could fulfill that part of me. NYC adjacent people, HMU!
A few months ago I dated a brilliant non-binary person with CP for like a week. Unfortunately they had a fall right at the start of us seeing eachother and I think felt a bit uncomfortable with letting me caretake so early on (especially knowing my history). I was very obsessed with them for a bit, but they didn't want to continue seeing me because they got very busy with PHD stuff. Honestly, it was probably for the best.
I professionally cuddled for the first time! We originally connected because he loves theatre and has CP and I boldly said "hi" on FB years ago. We loosely kept in contact, but he is nonverbal and I never felt a romantic connection. He hired me to cuddle for a couple hours which I thought went really well until the next day when he professed his adoration and asked me to go on a date for the millionth time. I had set the boundary that the cuddling would be non-romantic and felt he crossed it by asking me out after so no more cuddling for him. But I would definitely professionally cuddle again with somebody else in the future.
Finally, what actually got me back on here, I went to London for a family trip and ended up taking a day to meet up with someone I've been talking to for forever from PD. We had the best hookup of my life, and I was heartbroken I could only stay the one night. It was my first experience with someone with SCI (which is my primary dev interest) and it definitely fit into my classic dev fantasy. Leaving that person made me so eager to find what I'm looking for at home.
It all just has made me want to find something close to me that could fulfill that part of me. NYC adjacent people, HMU!