wheelbaby
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Wannabe female & devotee of sweet disa-men :)
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Post by wheelbaby on May 4, 2010 0:50:30 GMT -5
Sure my imagination is like that, veeeery active  But it saves me  ) |
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Post by Samantha on May 4, 2010 16:41:17 GMT -5
Thanks to everyone for answering I don't think that "why" fantasizing about non-disabled guy is a question I could answer. I wish I hadn't (not really though) it just happens, without any control. And somehow I don't even fell guilty about it, since I believe I do not wish them anything, well, not willingly. It is just sort of a little pleasure I allow myself into. But the thing is, that may be the real question that I ask here, is whether I am a genuine dev. Of course I know that the definition is broad. But from reading the forum, I often feel that perhaps more than many of you I am attracted to fantasy than the real thing. And again, it is possible that it came out this way because I have never tried the "real thing", but it also feels like I don't want the real thing, it scares me alot, and, I am afraid, it doesn't give me the rush as much as the fantasy. So...I don't know, I guess I am confused. My first real bf who I had feelings for was AB when i was 15. I alway's had a crazy imagination my whole life and it wasn't sexual then just dramatic fantisies about disabled men and women. I don't know how it happened but I started having a fantisy of him becoming a para while we were having sex one day. Then I had my first orgasm. I felt guilty afterwards like a todal freak but he loved it. The times we had sex before that I had never been turned on just trying to make him happy. So I imagined it ever time we did for 3 years. Of cource i never told him that. I also thought I would not like the real thing. That it would be to weird or something. I usualy got to nervous around the disabled to be attracted. I was an adolesent then. Until the day I met my now husband and got to know him first. Then we fell in love and let me tell you the real thing was WAY better. Like mind blowingly better. |
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wheelbaby
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Wannabe female & devotee of sweet disa-men :)
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Post by wheelbaby on May 5, 2010 1:30:50 GMT -5
Yeah, very familiar thoughts... I still help out myself with fantasies like that instead of choosing someone else. We're sort of soul mates, even if he's AB (able bodied). Sam', is your husband disabled? I'm quite new here and trying to catch up XX |
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Post by Samantha on May 5, 2010 14:19:24 GMT -5
Yup he's a T12/13 complete para from and accident 26 years ago. He was also born with one arm only goes a bit past the elbow.
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Post by Neffie on May 5, 2010 14:35:39 GMT -5
Thanks to everyone for answering I don't think that "why" fantasizing about non-disabled guy is a question I could answer. I wish I hadn't (not really though) it just happens, without any control. And somehow I don't even fell guilty about it, since I believe I do not wish them anything, well, not willingly. It is just sort of a little pleasure I allow myself into. But the thing is, that may be the real question that I ask here, is whether I am a genuine dev. Of course I know that the definition is broad. But from reading the forum, I often feel that perhaps more than many of you I am attracted to fantasy than the real thing. And again, it is possible that it came out this way because I have never tried the "real thing", but it also feels like I don't want the real thing, it scares me alot, and, I am afraid, it doesn't give me the rush as much as the fantasy. So...I don't know, I guess I am confused. My first real bf who I had feelings for was AB when i was 15. I alway's had a crazy imagination my whole life and it wasn't sexual then just dramatic fantisies about disabled men and women. I don't know how it happened but I started having a fantisy of him becoming a para while we were having sex one day. Then I had my first orgasm. I felt guilty afterwards like a todal freak but he loved it. The times we had sex before that I had never been turned on just trying to make him happy. So I imagined it ever time we did for 3 years. Of cource i never told him that. I also thought I would not like the real thing. That it would be to weird or something. I usualy got to nervous around the disabled to be attracted. I was an adolesent then. Until the day I met my now husband and got to know him first. Then we fell in love and let me tell you the real thing was WAY better. Like mind blowingly better. CHRIST you have a good imagination! I always thought mine was good but to be able to block that stuff out and orgasm is pretty cool. I have been with some seriously hot AB guys (ok, hot to me but no Brad) and have tried desperately to feel anything. My fave position has always and will always be sitting on top of him when he's sitting up. Still never came close to orgasm though. |
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Post by Emma on Sept 13, 2010 23:34:47 GMT -5
Yup he's a T12/13 complete para from and accident 26 years ago. He was also born with one arm only goes a bit past the elbow. So your husband is a para and an amputee, interesting and very cool! |
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anais
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Post by anais on Oct 30, 2010 9:16:26 GMT -5
While I was going through this thread, I had a feeling that something is a bit wrong with me. Many of you spoke about the guilt which is felt when fantasing about able guys being disabled. I have never felt such a guilt. How can I? Am I supposed to? First, I don't believe that our feelings or imagination has any magical effect on the reality. I believe, we are allowed to feel and imagine whatever, as long as the feelings don't get mixed up with deeds. Second, even if I did believe I could somehow harm the person I fantasise about, I never wish him anything. I mean, I never want him to BECOME disable, he just plays a part in my imagination, I use his image, not him himself. Also it happens by itself, the image is born unwillingly, there is nothig I can do about it. I do enjoy it though. The thing is, I enjoy it much more than the real stuff. I don't know why, perhaps I am used to this play since very young age. Or perhaps because I don't believe any real person could correspond with such accuracy to my fantasy. Imaginaning someone I have a crush on as being disabled is like, I donno, imagining him being sexier, than he is. Is there anything wrong with that? I can't really relate to that. Another thing is, that lately I discovered (I guess I always knew that, but never really formulated), that I competely enjoy sex with AB guys, I can have all the fun and orgasms that I am capable of. But when I please myslef, I always fantasise about dev things. And this is new to me, it started happening only lately. I guess I discovered the connection between sex and devoteeism not before the last 2 years, partly thanks to this board. Earlier I didn't see the connection. The dev feelings were one joyfyll thing and sex - compeltely another. But somehow they integrated adding spice to the sex with myself That was a surprise. So now I start to think, that may be I am missing here something. May be most of you are right, and there must be the same thing with two persons' sex as well. I don't know. I just can't believe, that it can be better than the fantasies or the "able" sex. I feel like a don't grasp the whole picture. And just wanted to say again, that I am very very grateful that you guys are here, sharing your emotions, thoughts and experiences. In confusing periods such as this, there is nothing more helpfull than this community. |
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Post by helena2902 on Nov 1, 2010 15:15:10 GMT -5
Hi Anais,
let me tell you this. There's absolutely nothing wrong with you!!
In fact, you spoke right out of my heart! Because I'm feeling exactly like you.
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But it saves me 
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