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Post by Claire on Apr 5, 2009 9:10:52 GMT -5
Tri asked for poetry to use in his artwork (the last line is not a subliminal message for you, Tri!  ). This is about myself, a para that I know, and you guys (wheelers) in general. It's not romantic or devotee-oriented at all, just my feelings about how I feel in relation to other wheelchair users, as a wheelchair user who has somewhat different reasons for wheeling. ParadoxesWheels spinning Friction burning In my hands In my head Don’t stop Stop! The corner of my eye Rolling movement Hoping, dreading I have to look It’s nothing It’s himTear my eyes away Don’t let him see I’m watching I’m wanting To share To hideNatural order twisted Weakness of body Strength of mind It’s all so wrong I need the oneLost the other Foot in front of the other Walking struggling Hating each step It’s all a lie For them For me Impossible acceptance Longing to belong Understand me Broken inside Like them But notGoodness shining Caring, helping Do they know Do they care Fighting LosingFearing the anger Hiding the shame It’s just myself Who I am Hate meLove me Edited a million times because I am wishy-washy. |
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Post by whatever on Apr 5, 2009 12:45:19 GMT -5
You are fucking sick. Go get help.
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Post by Chan on Apr 5, 2009 12:50:27 GMT -5
You are f*cking sick. Go get help. Someone sounds butt-hurt. Stfu. |
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Post by Claire on Apr 5, 2009 18:09:17 GMT -5
Thanks Chan.
He's right. *shrug*
That certainly wasn't meant to offend anyone. I took it down.
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Post by Chan on Apr 5, 2009 18:10:18 GMT -5
Thanks Chan. He's right. *shrug* That certainly wasn't meant to offend anyone. I took it down. Sorry. Don't let him/her win! There was nothing wrong or sick in any way with what you wrote, and you shouldn't have taken it down. I know that it's fucking horrible for someone to say something so nasty about personal work like poetry, art, or any other form of self-expression, but they're just lashing out at something that they're obviously very insecure about and don't have the ability to express their sentiments in a more educated and less venomous, retarded way. |
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Post by Claire on Apr 5, 2009 18:26:58 GMT -5
Okay, fuck it, you're right. I am *way too sensitive* about this. Always have been. Ugh. I was scared shitless to post it actually and then, like, the first comment, my worst nightmare about it comes true. But...time to grow some backbone.
Okay, bad analogy, but anyway...I'll put it back.
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Post by Inigo Montoya on Apr 5, 2009 19:12:48 GMT -5
I'm glad you put it back, Claire. I think it's very well done and I don't know what his problem is.
I don't understand why people have to be that way.
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Post by Lee on Apr 5, 2009 19:35:49 GMT -5
Claire, the first commenter had no business saying that to you. I am all about freedom of speech on this msg board, but that was trolling, plain and simple. I want you to feel comfortable expressing your feelings on here.
I am deleting their account. If you or anyone else gets randomly attacked like that, let me know.
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Post by Ouch on Apr 5, 2009 20:04:10 GMT -5
Okay, f*ck it, you're right. I am *way too sensitive* about this. Always have been. Ugh. I was scared sh*tless to post it actually and then, like, the first comment, my worst nightmare about it comes true. But...time to grow some backbone. Okay, bad analogy, but anyway...I'll put it back. Yeah, Claire, excellent piece of work, honestly - you give yourself too hard of a time. You know we respect you on this board, and that random 1 post members that pop up to troll threads are meaningless - they've attacked a little bit of everyone here. Please don't let that behaviour discourage you. I, for one, can say, and I think a lot of people here agree that we'd love to see you post your writing such at this on here. Heck, it's better than anything I can come up with. |
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Post by roger888 on Apr 6, 2009 1:35:13 GMT -5
Okay, f*ck it, you're right. I am *way too sensitive* about this. Always have been. Ugh. I was scared sh*tless to post it actually and then, like, the first comment, my worst nightmare about it comes true. But...time to grow some backbone. Okay, bad analogy, but anyway...I'll put it back. If you ever have anything to post again then just do it.Forget what anyone else thinks,you are always going to get Trolls or people who dont agree.If we all agreed about everything this board would get very boring.Its our differences of opinion that make this place come alive.  |
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Post by Claire on Apr 6, 2009 6:55:14 GMT -5
Thank you everyone. whatever: I am sick, I do need help. As for getting help, (at this point) I've seen a psychotherapist, two psychologists, a psychiatrist (plus talked to a very prominent one on the phone for 2.5 hours), two behavioral neurologists, a priest (plus had a LONG email conversation with another), a room full of various doctorate students and a GP. All of whom are at a loss, except the neurologists who are at least studying it and are convinced that it's neurological but beyond that have no idea what to do about it. If you have any ideas of where to get real, concrete help I'm all ears. "Get help" is so easy for you people to say, it's the most common hit and run. roger888: Thanks. You're soooo right in general, but I just have a problem with people who don't "agree" with BIID. BIID is a neurological disorder of the parietal lobe of the brain that processes body image. I feel like, how can a person not "agree" with someone having whatever disability/disorder. What is there to not agree with? Having BIID is not a matter of opinion! I have to fight this prejudice (Chan was right and deleting the whole thing was wrong and I was a coward and an idiot), because for every one troll that posts something rude, there are ten more lurkers thinking the same thing. Hope that makes sense. |
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Post by dolly on Apr 17, 2009 1:33:07 GMT -5
i thought your poem was very moving, claire.
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Post by Pony on Apr 17, 2009 15:03:39 GMT -5
Hey E-Claire, at least you haven't married a bridge - YET!!! hehe Look, compared to that BIID don't sound so strange, huh? I just now read the poem, and I liked it, especially the way you made each paragraph like a pyramid...cool look!! |
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Post by BA on Apr 17, 2009 18:26:57 GMT -5
This is YOUR place, OUR place. You post what you want and screw anyone who trolls it.
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Post by Claire on Apr 17, 2009 20:42:51 GMT -5
Hey E-Claire, at least you haven't married a bridge - YET!!! hehe Look, compared to that BIID don't sound so strange, huh? You have no idea how relieved I am to hear you say that, really. ;D Glad you liked it, thanks for reading. Thanks too dolly and AB. |
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). This is about myself, a para that I know, and you guys (wheelers) in general. It's not romantic or devotee-oriented at all, just my feelings about how I feel in relation to other wheelchair users, as a wheelchair user who has somewhat different reasons for wheeling. 
