Diary of an Ugly Girl

[canadiandev]

I agree with you Chan. I loved Nell's story - really funny, good plot, well-developed characters; the best fiction I've read so far on this site.

But when I was reading it I didn't feel squirmy inside or think "how the hell did you know that I feel like that?". I would have probably elaborated on transfers, the sound and look of Jim's wheelchair, how Tessie felt internally when they were out together in public, the sensation of holding his hands, etc.

[nell]

I have to say, I'm a little amazed because I definitely felt embarrassed posting some of my NON-dev thoughts to this crowd. Like the first time I met "Jim", how I initially totally ruled him out as dating material because he was in a wheelchair. I thought everyone would think less of me for that one.

I'm surprised how complimentary you guys are, considering I apparently failed at dev.

[Triassic]

i'm curious; those of you ladies who are attracted to both dis. and a.b. guys, and have dated both...is the experience of being out in public w/a gimp, on a date or whatever, is it a more 'intense' experience? or more exciting than being out w/a regular dude?

[nell]

Er, it's definitely "more exciting," meaning we attract tons of attention. I am not really an attention whore though, so I could do without it.

[ρɦoeɳix]

My recently ex-boyfriend for the past year and a half is in a wheelchair, but I dated a few a.b. guys before that.. I get just as easily attracted to both dis. and a.b. guys... soo maybe I'm not really a dev? lol Maybe I'm just some girl who doesn't care if her boyfriend has a disability or not as long as he's the right person for me... hmm...

Well... My experience is that we did get a lot of stares out in public. And in the beginning I thought it was a bit uncomfortable... Especially if we were like holding hands or stuff like that, then people would really stare at me (not so much at him, at least not when he could see that they were staring)... If I was just walking besides him without the holding hands part, then people looked at us completely different...
But after a while I stopped caring what other people thought... I felt comfortable around him, and to me he was just my boyfriend, not my boyfriend that was in a wheelchair... if that makes any sense...?

But, yeah... people did sometimes stare at us as if they wondered why I was with him..
While when I was going out with a.b. guys we were just some regular couple out on a date, and kind of blended in with the crowd...

[nell]

I am nowhere near as hot as you are, Phoenix, not "out of his league" at all, and we still get stared at a ton.

[BA]

Dec 5, 2009 8:09:10 GMT -5 Triassic said:

i'm curious; those of you ladies who are attracted to both dis. and a.b. guys, and have dated both...is the experience of being out in public w/a gimp, on a date or whatever, is it a more 'intense' experience? or more exciting than being out w/a regular dude?

Being 'out' with a guy in a chair does make people look at both of you more. I guess it would be the same as a mixed race couple. I don't find it really made much of a difference to me. Like Phoenix said, you just kind of get used to it and it becomes a non-issue. I think the same could be said for any couple where one or both stands out in some way, whether it be with an odd style of dress or where one is extremely attractive (aka Phoenix). If you don't 'blend' you get looked at. Just a fact of life. It doesn't bother me one bit.

[ρɦoeɳix]

Dec 5, 2009 9:10:11 GMT -5 nell said:

I am nowhere near as hot as you are, Phoenix, not "out of his league" at all, and we still get stared at a ton.

Well I wouldn't say I was 'out of his league' either... and I don't think I'm nearly as 'hot' as some of you people have gotten into your heads that I am *lol*

I just feel that people stared at me a lot more often because they thought it was all right to stare at me... as if staring at him would be much more rude than staring at me or something.. I don't know... that's just how it felt like to me... It probably doesn't make any sense to you all

[ρɦoeɳix]

Dec 5, 2009 15:13:17 GMT -5 Chan said:

Dec 5, 2009 9:00:01 GMT -5 ρɦoeɳix said:

Maybe I'm just some girl who doesn't care if her boyfriend has a disability or not

If that's true then I'd say, no, you probably aren't a dev at all. You'd be someone who's apathetic/indifferent to the disability, and I definitely wouldn't define a dev as feeling apathy toward dis guys.

Dec 5, 2009 9:00:01 GMT -5 ρɦoeɳix said:

I get just as easily attracted to both dis. and a.b. guys

Me, too. Even though I'm a dev, I find a lot of able-bodied guys sexy as well. I think a dev that is exclusively attracted to only disabled men is rare.

Hmmm, well I don't feel apathy/indifferent toward a disability.. and I do find guys in wheelchairs just as hot as a.b. guys... does that make me a dev? I'm not used to putting tags on my emotions towards a guy... But I do know that if I had a boyfriend that was in a wheelchair, I would find his disability just as attractive and sexy as the rest of him... but... I would never date a guy just because of his disability..! Just like I wouldn't date just any a.b. guy...

[nell]

Sorry to hijack my own thread , but I've been writing all day and I just sent Lee the conclusion of the story. So hopefully it will be posted soon.

[ρɦoeɳix]

Yay ;D

[nell]

OK, it looks like it is posted now.

[ρɦoeɳix]

That was a perfect ending! ^^ Your writing is amazing!

[Rayne]

Dec 6, 2009 9:32:29 GMT -5 nell said:

OK, it looks like it is posted now.

I got excited when I read this.^ ;D

Great ending, wonderful writing!

[nell]

Thanks!

I really enjoyed writing it, honestly. I'm sad to finish. Part of me kind of wants to keep going, although sequels are never as good as the original. There is still so much more I want to write about though.