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Oct 31, 2010 9:50:32 GMT -5
Post by jezebel on Oct 31, 2010 9:50:32 GMT -5
Ive been a chronic lurker for 5 years or so, Ive posted as a guest and some other alias in the past years. I can go for months without visiting these boards but i always manage to find myself back here again. I've always been conflicted about being a devotee. Ive been through all the literature from sexual fetishism to paraphilia. I realise now that there are worse people out there, so for the first time id like to not feel guilty anymore, and just accept being a devotee. Ive actually never had a physical relationship with a disabled guy. Partially due to the lack of exposure and the fact Im particular, Im attracted almost exclusivly to para's, that together with the fact that all the normal 'boyfriend' criteria still count, means I just havent actually had a non AB realtionship. I chatted to a guy who used to be on this board a while ago but thats the closest ive ever come. So i guess this is the beginning of a coming out process and after years of lurking...Im accepting myself
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Oct 31, 2010 10:42:28 GMT -5
Post by roger888 on Oct 31, 2010 10:42:28 GMT -5
Welcome to the board.Everyone is here to help with your coming out process.
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Oct 31, 2010 12:54:51 GMT -5
Post by Inigo Montoya on Oct 31, 2010 12:54:51 GMT -5
Welcome.
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Oct 31, 2010 15:17:44 GMT -5
Post by BA on Oct 31, 2010 15:17:44 GMT -5
Yay and welcome. We are all here with you on this journey.
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Oct 31, 2010 15:21:04 GMT -5
Post by Neffie on Oct 31, 2010 15:21:04 GMT -5
why did it take so long after finding the board??? Just curious. Five years is a long time to lurk, I mean i struggled for years with devoteism and got this within a week.
Feel free to express yourself here, there's nothing wrong in how you feel. We may sound like a bunch of nutters at times but we're here to help
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Oct 31, 2010 16:15:56 GMT -5
Post by Pony on Oct 31, 2010 16:15:56 GMT -5
Five years? Well, at least you've made it out of the darkness. I'm out of the running being c5c6, so happy para-picking....we're still lookin for a Dev for Assy if your preferences for SCI rises on the spine! Welcome to the jungle...
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Oct 31, 2010 17:15:38 GMT -5
Post by Emma on Oct 31, 2010 17:15:38 GMT -5
Welcome Jezebel. I love your ID. I understand your hesitation to officially join in and start accepting your devness. I'm glad you finally decided to do so! It feels so good to get yourself out there and start accepting who you are. Looking forward to hearing more from you.
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Oct 31, 2010 23:56:57 GMT -5
Post by trinity on Oct 31, 2010 23:56:57 GMT -5
Welcome from a 5 days lurker, 1 month new member. I can't imagine how much I will learn about devotism reading PD posts for the next 5 years. You could probably ask to become an honorary full member
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Post by alluringpariah on Nov 1, 2010 2:21:27 GMT -5
That's real cool you're beginning to accept yourself
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Nov 1, 2010 13:49:09 GMT -5
Post by wheelieInCali on Nov 1, 2010 13:49:09 GMT -5
Welcome welcome. I hope you can do some self exploration, get past the guilt, and find some kind of self acceptance. Sometimes we just have to subscribe to some rationalization that makes us feel better and stick to it. I know some of my views on life could be easily argued and proved wrong but I don't care, I smile more because of them.
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Nov 1, 2010 14:17:36 GMT -5
Post by A££Y "Cuddles" Magoo on Nov 1, 2010 14:17:36 GMT -5
5 years? wow. Did we really seem that scary? haha no, Just glad your're here.
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Post by Ray T on Nov 5, 2010 8:58:59 GMT -5
Hello and welcome
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Nov 6, 2010 12:47:01 GMT -5
Post by sittingbull on Nov 6, 2010 12:47:01 GMT -5
also greetings and welcome
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Nov 6, 2010 13:00:23 GMT -5
Post by roger888 on Nov 6, 2010 13:00:23 GMT -5
Don't tell me you have gone back to lurking.Wasn't 5 years more than long enough??
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Nov 7, 2010 12:35:19 GMT -5
Post by Devoblue on Nov 7, 2010 12:35:19 GMT -5
Welcome jezebel. I lurked for about 5 yrs as well and i'm glad you made the same decision to come out of the shadows. I'm so glad I did!
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