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Post by hjfundus on Oct 3, 2023 8:59:35 GMT -5
I did a lot of pretending in my room with the door absolutely locked, everyone had to be out the house or busy with no likelyhood of coming up. I made myself casts and bandages out of belts and pieces of fabric. I would walk around on them and maybe even film to watch back myself. Watching other pretenders on youtube. I remember also sitting in certain positions to stop the blood flow and feeling to my legs. Did it a lot and then got scared of the health risks. There was an online game when I was about 10 where you could create a character for yourself and give a recorded introduction so I gave mine a wheelchair and said in my message I am in a wheelchair etc. I often wonder if they ever caught on to the trends when I was a kid though and wondered what was up. I wonder about this too. I mean, my mom say "remember you really liked that boy in the book with the crutches?" Or "You really liked that girl in the book with glasses." But I don't think it would ever occur to my parents that it could be a sexual thing. Just like a raondom childhood obsession. stasi Mine was a children's encyclopedia and there was a boy with bandages on his body and he was hurt in one picture. Found it! archive.org/details/dorlingkindersle0000mcil/page/54/mode/2up Under "Crutch" |
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Post by hjfundus on Oct 3, 2023 9:44:33 GMT -5
Even though the paralyzed was a girl, this was one of the earliest moments where I knew that I feel a special relation to wheelers. In order to answer the original post. I never pretended in games neither did my barbie Ken need a wheelchair. But my thoughts started at bedtime when I knew it was just me and my mind. I don't remember at which age this started, but I would lay in my bed pretending that I was laying in a hospital bed and waking up. I would remember that I had been in a car accident together with my boyfriend (just "any" guy, not a specific person I had in mind). But he wasn't in the room where I woke up. And as I was figuring out what had happened to me, my boyfriend wheeled in my hospital room. About my injuries, I was usually flexible, sometimes I was paralyzed as well, sometimes I was fine or had a broken leg or arm. But he always became paralyzed. That was my personal bedtime story and that did it for me for many years. I'm very intrigued if you are also bi? Or the attraction to wheelers is something in itself - separate from the gender of the person? I am bi and am trying to figure out the relation between these two things. Made a thread here: paradevo.proboards.com/thread/10659/bisexuality-attraction-disabled-people |
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Post by hjfundus on Oct 3, 2023 9:52:58 GMT -5
Nevertheless all of these stories here prove that devness is congenital. I am not entirely convinced that anything is one way or the other. But it certainly shows a similarity in us from a very young age. Whether it is biological or because of a social situation, or both, I don't want to say. |
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Post by hjfundus on Oct 3, 2023 9:57:05 GMT -5
I had no desire at all to try his wheelchair and the idea actually made me a little uncomfortable. Although I can't say for sure if that had to do with the fact that I already had a feeling that there was something not quite right with my interest or just with a general learned discomfort with something disability-related. We had a wheelchair basketball day at my school and as much as I deeply wanted to try a wheelchair, I couldn't bring myself to sign up because I thought it would expose me and people would be able to see right through me. A missed opportunity! |
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Post by feelsunshine on Oct 23, 2023 14:30:36 GMT -5
Even though the paralyzed was a girl, this was one of the earliest moments where I knew that I feel a special relation to wheelers. In order to answer the original post. I never pretended in games neither did my barbie Ken need a wheelchair. But my thoughts started at bedtime when I knew it was just me and my mind. I don't remember at which age this started, but I would lay in my bed pretending that I was laying in a hospital bed and waking up. I would remember that I had been in a car accident together with my boyfriend (just "any" guy, not a specific person I had in mind). But he wasn't in the room where I woke up. And as I was figuring out what had happened to me, my boyfriend wheeled in my hospital room. About my injuries, I was usually flexible, sometimes I was paralyzed as well, sometimes I was fine or had a broken leg or arm. But he always became paralyzed. That was my personal bedtime story and that did it for me for many years. I'm very intrigued if you are also bi? Or the attraction to wheelers is something in itself - separate from the gender of the person? I am bi and am trying to figure out the relation between these two things. Made a thread here: paradevo.proboards.com/thread/10659/bisexuality-attraction-disabled-peopleHi, what you quoted here was my earliest memory of seeing someone in a wheelchair in a movie. So, not the fact that she was a girl was interesting to me but the wheeler aspect is what intrigued me. so, no, I am not bi. although I do find some type of women attractive, I never felt interested in having sexual interaction with women. I am completely into men. However I’m sort of thinking about if I’m actually some type of asexual. but maybe it’s currently just the lack of a suitable sexual partner that makes me think so. |
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Post by ayla on Oct 24, 2023 16:19:47 GMT -5
I had no desire at all to try his wheelchair and the idea actually made me a little uncomfortable. Although I can't say for sure if that had to do with the fact that I already had a feeling that there was something not quite right with my interest or just with a general learned discomfort with something disability-related. We had a wheelchair basketball day at my school and as much as I deeply wanted to try a wheelchair, I couldn't bring myself to sign up because I thought it would expose me and people would be able to see right through me. A missed opportunity! Oh my god, yes! ANY situation like this would have me blushing and absolutely sure everyone would know why. (Ah, the egocentric mind of a child...) I distinctly remember we had a special event where paramedics gave us a presentation about first aid and we got a tour of an ambulance. They asked for someone to volunteer being backboarded and secured with the cervical collar and OMG the conflict within me! Wanting the experience yet feeling it would "out" me! |
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I often wonder if they ever caught on to the trends when I was a kid though and wondered what was up.I wonder about this too. I mean, my mom say "remember you really liked that boy in the book with the crutches?" Or "You really liked that girl in the book with glasses." But I don't think it would ever occur to my parents that it could be a sexual thing. Just like a raondom childhood obsession.
