*Devs Only*- 1st dev crush might actually become something!
Apr 4, 2021 13:59:18 GMT -5
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Post by rebeckers84 on Apr 4, 2021 13:59:18 GMT -5
I’ve talked a few times on here and on the podcasts I’ve done about thinking back to the first time I can really remember noticing someone with a disability. For me it was a guy in high school transferring out of his car into his chair.
Through the years, I’ve thought about him a lot. I’ve looked him up on social media over and over but his profiles are pretty private. I’ve done the whole “part FBI investigator” thing (if you haven’t seen that bit by Gina Brillon, you gotta watch it. Cracks me up. Funny because it’s true. vm.tiktok.com/ZMeALfp48/). Anyway, squirrel, back to the point.
The Friday before I was going on the WAGS podcast I was getting some thoughts down on paper and of course he came to mind again. So I went to his FB (again) but this time something came over me and I actually hit add friend 😳. Immediately after I went out for a run to ‘clear my head’ which was mostly just second guessing/questioning myself doing that the entire time.
Very much to my surprise when I got back not only had he accepted my friend request but he also sent me a message! And not just any message, like a super stoked & excited I had reached out to him message!
We’ve now been chatting for the last 2 weeks catching up on the past like 20 years of life and actually getting to know each other. We’re from a pretty small city so everyone knows of everyone (and from his perspective everyone knew the 1 guy in a wheelchair) but I never really knew him and had NO clue he would have any idea who I was. But it turns out I guess I’m more memorable than I give myself credit for haha.
This whole thing has been totally mind boggling to me. Every time his name pops up messaging me it’s just baffling all over again that I feel like I’ve sorta “pined” (for lack of a better term) over this guy for 20 years and we’re actually talking. I have no idea where it’s going to go. We’ve both stated numerous times how amazing our conversations are, how great it’s been to reconnect after so many years and that we want to see where things go but not rush into anything crazy fast. So we’ll see. No matter what, it’s literally like a dream come true to just be talking to him.
And if that alone didn’t make me super happy, the fact that I actually get to share all of this with my closest girlfriends is also an amazing feeling. There’s no hiding, no covering up details, no fibbing the truth a little bit. Just straight out this is what’s going on.
Through the years, I’ve thought about him a lot. I’ve looked him up on social media over and over but his profiles are pretty private. I’ve done the whole “part FBI investigator” thing (if you haven’t seen that bit by Gina Brillon, you gotta watch it. Cracks me up. Funny because it’s true. vm.tiktok.com/ZMeALfp48/). Anyway, squirrel, back to the point.
The Friday before I was going on the WAGS podcast I was getting some thoughts down on paper and of course he came to mind again. So I went to his FB (again) but this time something came over me and I actually hit add friend 😳. Immediately after I went out for a run to ‘clear my head’ which was mostly just second guessing/questioning myself doing that the entire time.
Very much to my surprise when I got back not only had he accepted my friend request but he also sent me a message! And not just any message, like a super stoked & excited I had reached out to him message!
We’ve now been chatting for the last 2 weeks catching up on the past like 20 years of life and actually getting to know each other. We’re from a pretty small city so everyone knows of everyone (and from his perspective everyone knew the 1 guy in a wheelchair) but I never really knew him and had NO clue he would have any idea who I was. But it turns out I guess I’m more memorable than I give myself credit for haha.
This whole thing has been totally mind boggling to me. Every time his name pops up messaging me it’s just baffling all over again that I feel like I’ve sorta “pined” (for lack of a better term) over this guy for 20 years and we’re actually talking. I have no idea where it’s going to go. We’ve both stated numerous times how amazing our conversations are, how great it’s been to reconnect after so many years and that we want to see where things go but not rush into anything crazy fast. So we’ll see. No matter what, it’s literally like a dream come true to just be talking to him.
And if that alone didn’t make me super happy, the fact that I actually get to share all of this with my closest girlfriends is also an amazing feeling. There’s no hiding, no covering up details, no fibbing the truth a little bit. Just straight out this is what’s going on.
