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Post by Pony on Nov 21, 2016 10:49:30 GMT -5
Almost 37 for me now...neck n shoulders giving me hell, so is my van. Everything getting old, breaking down...drives my stress level up. My AB buddy going through same aches n pains, so not exclusive to quads, I guess.
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Post by Pony on Nov 21, 2016 15:00:26 GMT -5
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Post by Pony on Dec 5, 2016 20:07:32 GMT -5
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well, it's xmas time, and i'm still wearing a tank top. one of better decisions was to jump on a jet and come back toFlorida after my wreck; life just easier here in the warmth. It does eventually get cold, then warm up, then cold again. This pattern goes on for 3-4 months, but sometimes it's just warm as hell even in winter. I have way too many sweaters for the few times it gets cold, but i love sweaters, really.
Let's talk love n sex...best subject EVER, especially since it's so fuckin boring on here lately. First, i'm still, even at my age and quadism, the most sex-minded person I know. lol No, i'm dead serious, and there's one other girl i know as hot-minded as me. She said to me the other day, "Honey, you really help me get the "hot" out!" Some girls don't seem to have that; some push it away; some explore it. Even when i was a little kid, i loved, no ADORED, girls. I was hyper-sexual as a kid, even before i knew exactly what to do. I remember a few older girls teasing me wheni was around 11, letting me touch them,and man, it was the most exciting thing ever to me. Fast forward to now, and i'm still so crazy about making a girl cum. It's absolutely the best drug. To tell you the truth, i love flirting, or teasing, with them even if we don't play sexually. I have long since givenup on women my age,; they just don't seem to 'appreciate' my attitude- not sure why! lol Probably just not met the right one.
The other day an old gf called me, she's married now, but evidently not happy and looking to leave. She said she's looking for another guy that was like me bcoz we had such fun, and it was highly sexual- something she misses in her marriage. She said "like me." but NOT me. lol Now, i could've took offense, but fuck it, at least she recognizes that incredible time we had. My question is, would you accept bing a 'sidekick?' I can completely understand why a chick might not want to whole package with me, but maybe keep me as toy.
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Post by Pony on Dec 7, 2016 19:00:44 GMT -5
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When i was a young quad, i don't remember getting so stiff in my joints, especially in bed. I wake up 3-4 times throughout night with neck n shoulders killin me. I sit up, move around, tilt my head forward to stretch my neck n shoulders, but it takes getting out of bed to really get rid of achey joints. I tell ya, everything gets HARDER physically when you get older; i fight the good fight, but shit def becomes more difficult as an older- quad.
At times, you have to be an engineer, devising ways to accomplish tasks. I've got my routines down, but there are always things that come up that require creative thinking; how to pick up that bag with sub in it, or making the steering device my right hand fits in to drive fit tighter. Example: I noticed for the past few months myn hand wanted to slip out of the tri-pin that i use to steer van, only when turning, but it definitely could be dangerous. It happened a few times; slamming on brakes i got my hand back in without hitting someone, but i could tell this was becoming a prob. I paid my roommate $10 to help me tape it with Gorilla Tape, but it had to be in the perfect spots. Voila, it worked like a charm.
Another example, i wanted a sub from Subway for dinner, but it's impossible for me to get in and get a sub and carry it out, so i called em from outside store. They made up meatball sub, brought it out, set it on passenger seat they way i old them, and i was on my way. Now, getting it in the house took a little ingenuity, but if there's one tool a quad learns how to use, it's your mouth. I've becomean expert at using my teeth to hold bags while i do things with my arms, like push back from steering wheel, open door, lower lift and push. Without a good mouth, i'd never get a Coke or have a sex life. lol
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Post by Pony on Dec 15, 2016 19:02:25 GMT -5
So a few years ago my former doctor, Dr. Schwartz, was murdered. Cops eventually made an arrest of the handyman, and while he awaits trial his wife goes to jail for scamming an older woman with dementia. There are always scumbags looking to take advantage of the weak. It reminds me of a few years ago; before my mother went into a nursing home, a female predator/crackhead that was living near my house would slide over to get money off my mother. She'd watch for when I left, then sneak over. My mother's memory was already getting quite bad, so most times she would vaguely remember. I ended up telling her to stay away, but she was very determined. Be very careful who you let into your space, especially if you're vulnerable in any way.
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Post by Pony on Dec 16, 2016 16:16:00 GMT -5
You'd think the way i spread video of me playing music that i'm very comfortable about me, my image, as a quad singing. i'm really NOT! I hate the way i look, and the lack of movement. it looks so strange to me, but hey, it's a thrill to play music, and i kinda feel like i'm breaking the stereotype. After playing Tuesday, a few guys came over to me; one said, "Man, you really surprised me!" We bumped fists, and off he went. But that's exactly what i'm trying to do; well, i'm also enjoying the electricity of playing a great song, too. But there's an extra boost when you know you're showing them something they've never seen.
Then it's back to crazy quad-life that i hate, yet embrace somehow. My lift broke over my bed. What a fucking stupid life it can turn into as soon as something breaks.
Merry Christmas....
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Post by Pony on Jan 3, 2017 16:34:55 GMT -5
bLOG It's been the warmest December ever, I think...still running AC! Man, I was sick for two damn weeks, but finally getting back to myself. But I gotta tell ys, this was a beast of a virus. As a quad, when it hits my chest it gets very hard, especially in bed. I was awake for three night, pullin on my bed rail, trying to get shit out of chest. it took all my strength, left my elbow bloody, and i'm still trying to get back to full power. Plus, it hurt my shoulder...tryin to heal it coz it's kinda scary driving. I'm convinced that quads like me have no business having a wife, unless she has her own bedroom, and she must know how to love while keeping certain distance from my war with myself. It's a tricky thing, but if you become to close to this struggle, it could swallow you, destroy your feelings and make you wish you never fell for a guy like me. I'm just being blunt. At the same time, it's not all the time, and i don't carry a bad attitude around.  |
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Post by Pony on Jan 13, 2017 12:58:49 GMT -5
This was me and my guitarist back in the day...maybe 10 years ago!
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Post by Pony on Jan 30, 2017 10:16:19 GMT -5
One
I’m only one man with one life
The two of us make one conversation
And seven billion people on Earth make only one race
Human race
We live one life on this one planet under one Sun
My one spirit in this one moment
Each number is really just one
And when I win it’s only one success
The importance of one body that chooses one direction
One fate, one path to one river
We search for one missing piece to complete this one love
So that One heart beats as one
One choice can lead to disaster, or paradise
The blame, or credit, lies with only one
I want to be the one
The only one
The one you think of in your one moment
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Post by Pony on Jan 30, 2017 19:03:24 GMT -5
Raining Diamonds...  |
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Post by Pony on Feb 8, 2017 21:48:19 GMT -5
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Post by Pony on Feb 10, 2017 17:44:49 GMT -5
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Post by Pony on Feb 12, 2017 12:45:26 GMT -5
bLOG Some much shit has happened lately, not easy being a quad. You depend on mechanical things working 100% of time; otherwise, you're fucked! I never get a month anymore where I'm not forking out 100s of bucks to repair shit. It's either my lift over bed, or lift in van, or van, or something. It's my lift over bed right now, and it's stressful n costly every time. Not to mention my shoulders kill me 24/7 now. Still, i have my music that gives me some pleasure, and the warm sun that heals me...spiritually as much as physically. Lately, I'm promoting my new record with my music project, Raining Diamonds. My guitar player is so good at recording/producing. This is a song we wrote a few weeks ago. I came up with the hook in about 30 seconds; maybe it's because all the crazy shit going on in this world, I don't know. Mountain of Love |
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Post by Pony on Feb 14, 2017 11:12:32 GMT -5
Happy Valentine's Day, you sexy muthafucka... Make Love |
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Post by Pony on Feb 15, 2017 11:22:09 GMT -5
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