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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2018 2:21:59 GMT -5
Hi all,
I am not a wannabe, but when aroused I frequently fantasize about me being a paraplegic/lower quadriplegic (C7-C8). But I am not sure if I would want myself to be paralyzed for real for life. Thus, I am curious to know if any devotee themselves became paralyzed? What were your thoughts and feelings?
Anyone in the same boat as me?
Much thanks,
Devotee
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Post by shape on Mar 4, 2018 3:48:36 GMT -5
Hi all, I am not a wannabe, but when aroused I frequently fantasize about me being a paraplegic/lower quadriplegic (C7-C8). But I am not sure if I would want myself to be paralyzed for real for life. Thus, I am curious to know if any devotee themselves became paralyzed? What were your thoughts and feelings? Anyone in the same boat as me? Much thanks, Devotee Hello @devo8586. I'm not sure if it's the same but I'm a dev and have had recently dreams about having one of the disabilities I'm a dev. It only happened twice but just wondering if it might relate... Oh, and welcome! |
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Post by LaMara on Mar 4, 2018 4:27:52 GMT -5
You’re not the only one. I used to fantasise about being blind or an amputee, even as a child.
The whole thing faded away once I became more and more aware of My dev feelings, but sometimes I still imagine how it would be. And I have very detailed dreams of being either a pwd or that I’m pretending to be one.
But since I would never ever want to be a pwd in real life, I don’t really consider myself a pretender or wannabe.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2018 14:20:38 GMT -5
Hi all, I am not a wannabe, but when aroused I frequently fantasize about me being a paraplegic/lower quadriplegic (C7-C8). But I am not sure if I would want myself to be paralyzed for real for life. Thus, I am curious to know if any devotee themselves became paralyzed? What were your thoughts and feelings? Anyone in the same boat as me? Much thanks, Devotee Hello @devo8586 . I'm not sure if it's the same but I'm a dev and have had recently dreams about having one of the disabilities I'm a dev. It only happened twice but just wondering if it might relate... Oh, and welcome! Thank you  It does relate. What disabilities did you dream about having? |
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Post by shape on Mar 4, 2018 14:26:40 GMT -5
Both times were amputations. In my first night I became a dak, and I remember I spent all the dream wanting to be on my own at home to be able to see the stumps. Even Kyle Maynard was in that dream, delaying the moment that never came: paying attention to my new stumps...
The other I was dbk wearing prosthetics, and I didn't even bother. Like if it wasn't a problem but not something I wanted to see like in the first one.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2018 14:28:36 GMT -5
You’re not the only one. I used to fantasise about being blind or an amputee, even as a child. The whole thing faded away once I became more and more aware of My dev feelings, but sometimes I still imagine how it would be. And I have very detailed dreams of being either a pwd or that I’m pretending to be one. But since I would never ever want to be a pwd in real life, I don’t really consider myself a pretender or wannabe. I see. I too do not consider myself as a pretender or wannabe, but like you I too have detailed dreams. Something like I am higher para/or quad with some hand function but not complete loss, like C7,C8,T1 range, in a mall with my partner, or like in a park, or adjusting my legs on the foot plate of wheelchair or that I am transferring in and out of my bed etc. On one hand it arouses me on the other I would'nt want it permanently. I wonder if these dreams mean something. I wonder if these dreams/fantasies are sort of transition towards being a wannabe? Mind sharing what kind of dreams do you have? |
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2018 15:54:56 GMT -5
Both times were amputations. In my first night I became a dak, and I remember I spent all the dream wanting to be on my own at home to be able to see the stumps. Even Kyle Maynard was in that dream, delaying the moment that never came: paying attention to my new stumps... The other I was dbk wearing prosthetics, and I didn't even bother. Like if it wasn't a problem but not something I wanted to see like in the first one. Hmm, thanks for sharing your thoughts.. are you an amputee dev? |
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Post by shape on Mar 4, 2018 16:03:27 GMT -5
Both times were amputations. In my first night I became a dak, and I remember I spent all the dream wanting to be on my own at home to be able to see the stumps. Even Kyle Maynard was in that dream, delaying the moment that never came: paying attention to my new stumps... The other I was dbk wearing prosthetics, and I didn't even bother. Like if it wasn't a problem but not something I wanted to see like in the first one. Hmm, thanks for sharing your thoughts.. are you an amputee dev? Yes, not only, but yes. Dak mostly. I believe that is why I was so eager to see my stumps in my first dream and didn't bother in the second. I think I was excited and anticipating the arousal |
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2018 16:09:11 GMT -5
Hmm, thanks for sharing your thoughts.. are you an amputee dev? Yes, not only, but yes. Dak mostly. I believe that is why I was so eager to see my stumps in my first dream and didn't bother in the second. I think I was excited and anticipating the arousal I understand. Likewise I am a para devotee and my dreams are ones where I am a higher para or lower quad. I guess the type of devness relates to kind of dreams. Also I realized that mostly these dreams are in early morning, shortly before I wake up. |
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Post by LaMara on Mar 4, 2018 16:31:52 GMT -5
You’re not the only one. I used to fantasise about being blind or an amputee, even as a child. The whole thing faded away once I became more and more aware of My dev feelings, but sometimes I still imagine how it would be. And I have very detailed dreams of being either a pwd or that I’m pretending to be one. But since I would never ever want to be a pwd in real life, I don’t really consider myself a pretender or wannabe. I see. I too do not consider myself as a pretender or wannabe, but like you I too have detailed dreams. Something like I am higher para/or quad with some hand function but not complete loss, like C7,C8,T1 range, in a mall with my partner, or like in a park, or adjusting my legs on the foot plate of wheelchair or that I am transferring in and out of my bed etc. On one hand it arouses me on the other I would'nt want it permanently. I wonder if these dreams mean something. I wonder if these dreams/fantasies are sort of transition towards being a wannabe? Mind sharing what kind of dreams do you have? It's weird, because even though I'm definitely a blindness and amp dev, I frequently had dreams where I was a para or pretending to be a para. A lot of those are set in my former University and at that time one of my best friends was a pwd (not a para, but using a wheelchair nonetheless) so maybe my brain is weirdly mixing all those elements. I've also dreamed I was blind or pretending to be, but in the dream the two things were kind of mixed together, it wasn't clear to me which of the two I was. I've also very vividly fantasized about what my life would be if I lost a leg or a hand, and as a child I would limp on purpose to see if people would notice, but I came to the conclusion that it's something I would never ever seek out, it's not sexually attractive to me at all nor I feel any BIID symptoms. I'm just so fascinated and curious about amputees that I wonder how I would cope in different situations. It's more of a make believe game played in my head if that makes sense. About the dreams, I tend to think my brain is just picking and mixing from my real life experiences (and discussing disability on PD definitely has an influence) but it doesn't really necessarily mean I (or you, for that matters) have wannabe tendencies. For example, I also dream about driving a car a lot, and I absolutely HATE driving, haven't done it since 2009 and I don't intend to. Human brain is weird af  |
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Post by wheeliedev on May 19, 2018 9:55:16 GMT -5
Hi devo, i can relate to your feelings about fantasizing about paraplegia and quadriplegia.
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Post by Deleted on May 19, 2018 12:34:53 GMT -5
I don't dream about being paralyzed ever and my dev attraction is paraplegia/quadrigplegia.
I do like other elements of being "disabled" but they are more on the immobility scale and are tied more into my sexual interests and fetishes ( I don't consider my devness a fetish).
I have never spent much time thinking about if I want to be disabled and I actually stay away from those thoughts purposely because I don't want to add another element to all of this dev stuff. It's one thing to live with being a dev but I can't even imagine being "haunted" by the constant longing of becoming disabled as in BIID for example.
I have talked to someone though who was a dev before and became paralyzed in reality. This is actually very intriguing to me and also fascinating.
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Post by elbs on May 20, 2018 1:16:18 GMT -5
I think it's all part of the same spectrum. Devotees, pretenders and wannabes.
I'm mostly just a devotee, but I do occasionally pretend, and I was a lot more into pretending as a child.
Sometimes the line between 'want to be with' and 'want to be' can be blurry and confusing.
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Post by joshdevguy on May 23, 2018 18:54:51 GMT -5
Hi devo, i can relate to your feelings about fantasizing about paraplegia and quadriplegia. Yeah, I have had fantasies about that as well. Even dreamed I was in a wheelchair. |
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Post by robbb on May 24, 2018 13:17:17 GMT -5
I chatted online to a guy who reckoned he was a dev who had become SCI due to a spinal op. The longer the chatting went on the less convinced I became he was for real.
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It does relate. What disabilities did you dream about having? 
