Post by shynight on May 13, 2010 4:56:41 GMT -5
My first post so here goes nothing..
It amazes me the amount of guilt and shame I sense reading through your heart-felt posts.. your stories.. how you cope and deal with your 'dev side'..
Sometimes i want to grab some of you and shake them into their senses.. a lot of guilt.. over something that isn't short of amazing..
As a para.. and one who thinks of his disability as a blessing.. as i have been saying to some lately.. god only knows how i would've turned out had i been AB.. i like who i am now and am proud of it.. but unlike everyone who just worked hard to get were i am.. i worked doubly as hard.. my job includes a lot of traveling and god knows i love it.. but some day-to-day events which people do so casually.. are very hard for us wheelers.. specially the ones like me.. doing it on our own.. and loving it..
A dev embraces ones disability.. the only part of him/her they might be shy about.. not only embraces it.. but celebrates it.. where others might accept or even pretend its not there.. thinking it for the best.. if i tell someone a story about a hardship i overcame.. something simple like.. sneaking off my wheelchair when no one was watching to pull it up a step that was in my way.. I DON'T want pity or anger at the stupid steps! As small a task as that was.. inside.. i am proud.. celebrate it with me.. even tell me "wish i was there to see it!".. if u think that to be cruel or wrong.. then you're dead wrong..
Please understand, i am not naive either. I do understand a lot of Devs pains and guilts have deep REAL roots, and i would be cruel to dismiss them entirely, but please.. relax..
I must also add, from what i read here, Devs are not simple minded nor simple emotioned .. for lack of better terms.. quiet the opposite.. on both fronts.. the battles that rage inside each one of you.. my heart goes out to you.. especially those of you who are currently committed to an AB.. truly.. my heart goes out to you..
I recently told a dear friend of mine "devs give sensation where sensation is lost".. I truly wish.. my dear devs.. that you would see yourselves through my eyes.. if only for one second.. it might make u smile..
It amazes me the amount of guilt and shame I sense reading through your heart-felt posts.. your stories.. how you cope and deal with your 'dev side'..
Sometimes i want to grab some of you and shake them into their senses.. a lot of guilt.. over something that isn't short of amazing..
As a para.. and one who thinks of his disability as a blessing.. as i have been saying to some lately.. god only knows how i would've turned out had i been AB.. i like who i am now and am proud of it.. but unlike everyone who just worked hard to get were i am.. i worked doubly as hard.. my job includes a lot of traveling and god knows i love it.. but some day-to-day events which people do so casually.. are very hard for us wheelers.. specially the ones like me.. doing it on our own.. and loving it..
A dev embraces ones disability.. the only part of him/her they might be shy about.. not only embraces it.. but celebrates it.. where others might accept or even pretend its not there.. thinking it for the best.. if i tell someone a story about a hardship i overcame.. something simple like.. sneaking off my wheelchair when no one was watching to pull it up a step that was in my way.. I DON'T want pity or anger at the stupid steps! As small a task as that was.. inside.. i am proud.. celebrate it with me.. even tell me "wish i was there to see it!".. if u think that to be cruel or wrong.. then you're dead wrong..
Please understand, i am not naive either. I do understand a lot of Devs pains and guilts have deep REAL roots, and i would be cruel to dismiss them entirely, but please.. relax..
I must also add, from what i read here, Devs are not simple minded nor simple emotioned .. for lack of better terms.. quiet the opposite.. on both fronts.. the battles that rage inside each one of you.. my heart goes out to you.. especially those of you who are currently committed to an AB.. truly.. my heart goes out to you..
I recently told a dear friend of mine "devs give sensation where sensation is lost".. I truly wish.. my dear devs.. that you would see yourselves through my eyes.. if only for one second.. it might make u smile..